Tuesday, 22 November 2005
The Futile Love
No matter where you look the chances of finding *true* love are extremely limited especially in todays society. I have covered countless times what I beleive true love is, but how many other people out there hold what you as an individual think is true love, even to a simular degree.
Love is futiles, it simply places a reliance on another individual which in turn creates hurt and let down. If someone has truly found love then I congratulate you but for the majority out there looking the possibility of *true hurt* and *true anguish* is more so a possibility then *true love*.
Shall we give up? Its not in our nature but our nature as emotional and loving as it may be always seems to guide us down the path to pain instead of love.
Its a reality that stings.
Its a reality that hurts.
Its a reality that can only be taken away in dreams.
Fly on the wings of love, if only in your dreams.
Love is the missing link.
What People Say
People say they will do this or that but why? Do you think honestly anybody really does anything for other people these days? I think not.
In todays society where people have been brought up the way they have a selfish attitude is always around the corner.
Where am I really going with this topic? Essentially I just want to advise everyone that pinning hopes on another individual or even a group of individuals is futile. In all reality the only person you can rely on is yourself but, have you ever found yourself feeling regret etc? This is essentialy you letting yourself, so if you as an individual let yourself down sometimes how is it ever possible to have faith in any external entity.
Its the painful truth, that is all it is.
Be weary people for the real world is truly a painful place to live, live for yourself as living for others hurts to much.
Wednesday, 23 February 2005
Failure of Life
Hurt will pass,
The passing will hurt,
The hurting will kill,
The death is the way to end the suffering,
We want forgiveness,
We want happiness,
We fail at perfection,
We fail at giving,
We fail ourselves,
We have failed life...
Tuesday, 22 February 2005
Something a Little More Wild
I think sex is act best left for when you love someone, sex can be wild and fun but of course its at its peak when you actually care for who you are with. I think in the modern world it is important to be a little wild and experiment. Now in my opinion its the guy who should be pleasing the girl, guys have hands and they rarely do much anyway so they can do themselves instead, and it doesn't talk much to finish a guy off.
As I have said previously it is important to have good communication in a relationship and for a great sex life, being able to talk about these kinds of issues is important too. If you want your partner to do something to you talk to them about it. If you want to do something to your partner and you are not sure if they would like it talk to them and ask them, you never know.
Live on the wild side too, sexual fantasies don't have to just be fantasies, of course they should be nice fantasies but with good communication talk to your partner about your fantasies and see if they are willing to make an exchange, your fantasy for one of theirs, fantasies carried out together can be very intimate and can mean a lot between couples.
I think in conclusion, it is a good idea to experiment during sex and have a good time, moans and screams can be very fun. Only ever have sex with someone you love and make it a goal to learn that persons body.
May you all have wild, fun and intimate times with those you love :P
Illuzian
Monday, 31 January 2005
The Love I Feel
She makes me happy just thinking of her
She makes me smile just to be talking to her
The love we feel is so amazing
The future we hold is so promising
My biggest fear is so sickening
I can feel the sadness thickening
Why do we hold these insecurities
Why do we make these fears
All I know is I love her
And I know in my hear she loves me
For it is so easy to love and so easy to fear
All I know is I can feel her near
Near my heart near my soul
It is like destiny
I want to be with her for eternity
May I be at ease
Knowing we will be together forever
Friday, 28 January 2005
Love.. Amazing
Have you ever loved someone so much, but not been by their side? Have you ever worried about someone and not been able to hug them when they come home? Have you ever care so much it hurts you? I Am so happy right now, I found someone special, But she lives a little distantance away, I just want to be there with her.
I live my illusion, one moment at a time
I live for love every moment in time
I want happiness like every one of you do
I want nobody but my special somebody
That special somebody fills all my desires and dreams
Let me be with that somebody for that is all I want
All I live for is love, And this feels like a dream
Love In a Modern World
Love is quite amazing, the feeling of love, the power of love and the way we react to love is all quite amazing. I think It is one of the most beautiful experiences one can have. This leads me to discuss in depth my thoughts on love itself.
I think love to me at least is caring for someone, making that person you care about happy and doing everything in your power to satisfy them and their needs, I think the feeling itself is also relevant but that really is indescribable, I can only advise those who would like to have an example will need to feel It first.
When one is in a relationship I think it should be essential to commit and also to be as selfless as possible, of course it isn’t possible to be perfect but on the same note one should strive to be perfect for that person, of course this should not involve changing who you are, but of course if you are completely selfless it could result in that.
In regards to selflessness, I think it is also essential to develop a good trust with your partner, some people have a hard time trusting but one must question this, if one does not trust this is very unhealthy. Think of it in a “Trust until proven otherwise”. Question your thinking, has the person ever broken your trust? If not there is really no need to worry.
I think like in every day life one should also watch their actions when they are in a relationship, when one becomes jealous, question the jealousy and see if you honestly have reason to be jealous, if you feel yourself getting upset or angry restrain yourself and ask yourself why this emotion has arisen.
I also think that good communication is very essential in all forms of love, you must talk to the person you are in a relationship with and be completely open to discuss anything, you must be diplomatic, do not react too much when you discuss topics you may not both agree on, be sure to allow your partner to have free will as well. This leads me to forgiveness and how important this can be.
When one is in a relationship it is important to consider that no one person is perfect, everyone makes mistakes, I am sure trust can be broken but it is also important to forgive your partner if you have a flourishing relationship but obviously when too much has been done to you then it is obviously important for you to consider leaving such a relationship.
I once heard a monk say if you want commitment marry a swan.. I think that can be very true, but what may seem like a good idea for all is to act like a swan, care take your partner, see them as equals and think of your actions and really question your emotions. I think commitment and openness is also truly essential.
Now I would like to discuss the things I think ruin relationships, I think it is also a good idea to be aware of the things that can damage a good relationship so as to prevent these things from occurring.
Now the main things I think ruin relationships are a lack of communication, selfishness, lack of control, lack of trust, too much stress and intensity, not balancing your life together, trying to change or control the other person
In regards to communication, I did address this earlier and as stated it is good to be open and communicate with your partner, if this does not occur it can result in a lack of trust or just a lack of interest also.
As I stated earlier selflessness is beneficial to a relationship, when one becomes selfish they forming expectations, when these are not satisfied one will get upset or disappointed, also a lack of trust can also occur when expectations are created, for example expecting your partner to spend time with you but they go off with a friend. I think it is essential to be as selfless as possible. Also the selflessness plays a part of being self controlled.
Self control is important, one must be able to restrain from overreact in a negative way, failure to do this usually results in your partner not being able to cope or being scare of you, this is not something that is of any benefit to oneself, also it is a hard error to mend.
The issue of trust I have addressed in this text many times before, a lack of trust can result in arguments, it can result in paranoia and also create many other negativities. Let go of your self question and be free to trust, for you will find it hard to establish firm ground in any relationship.
Stress is one thing that many people find hard to deal with, I think balancing a relationship is important in stress control. When you are with someone you need to be able to spend a decent amount of time with someone without smothering them, Spending little time together can result in a communication breakdown and spending too much time together can result in boredom, and of course conflict. When one enters a relationship it is important to pursue that which interests you outside of the relationship and maintain ones friendships, of course it is also important to do things together. Maintaining a balance in a relationship helps keep stress levels at a minimum.
I think accepting the person you are with is also important, nobody is perfect, if you have conflicting interests do not try to sway your partner or change your partner to like something they don’t want to like. If you are completely accepting of the person you love this will make your relationship that much easier.
In conclusion I honestly think that love is a wonderful thing but it seems people are loosing interest in each other and pursuing the wrong things, I think if we try to follow these simple ideas and be aware of ourselves we will live much happier and our relationships will be so much more rewarding.
May you all find true love and happiness
Selfishness and the World
Recently I was thinking about a few things, selfishness and love, obviously in this post I will be discussing Selfishness.
I think the problem we have in the modern world is people really don’t consider other people anymore, I find this to be the cause of war, the cause of suffering and the cause of pain in most circumstances. I also think this same reason is one of the primary reasons for relationship breakdown with partners and also friends.
I think in the essence of things people do things for themselves, even doing things for others is generally for your own benefit. I think though that doing something for someone else is and feeling good about it is better then doing something solely for oneself, this does benefit yourself but obviously is doing much good at the same time.
I think it is wise to consider your actions on a whole when committing to them, if a friend wants to go out, go out with them and make them happy, don’t make people do what you want them to. In a relationship try to be completely selfless, aspire to make that special person happy.
Of course on the same token I would like to say that being completely selfless to the point where it makes you sick is not good, you need to take care of yourself, if you do not then you will not be able to perform your normal tasks to benefit others.. sometimes looking after yourself is of more benefit. Also think of the people that care for you, they may worry about you if you wear yourself down.
In conclusion I think that people need to consider the people that will be impacted through their actions, whether this be their friends, the next generation or their loved ones.
May you all be happy.
Friday, 24 December 2004
New Site
Content at the site consists of FAQs, humorous and serious, stories by the members and admins, computer gaming related content and of course Music related material. There are also forums with various categories.
Swing by and check it out, hope you all enjoy.
MOT - Masters Of Trance
Tuesday, 19 October 2004
How to React to Difficult People
When a person challenges you in a way that is hostile, walk away and back out, if you are called a name, walk away. The best thing to do is give the attacker victory, this causes them no harm and makes them think about what they have done.
It is almost automatic to react to challenges. We must clear the mind and work on dealing with this people in a positive way. If we do react to them negatively we are ultimately causing them me pain as well as you more pain.
As hard as it sounds there are more benefits in reacting postively to someone then negatively. Give it a go my friends, let your egos drop for a day and see how it feels. This practice will also help you be more tolerant to your friends on, you will be able to deal with them more if they have a bad day. It will also help you be more tolerant to new people you meet.
May you all be peaceful.
Saturday, 16 October 2004
Fault Finders
People are never perfect. I certainly am not and I invite you now to come forward with my faults, this is an invitation. I am giving this invitation for those who do come forward with my faults will not reap the bad karma of that action.
Don't look for faults in anyone, nobody should tell anybody or discuss anybodies faults, for would you like somebody to tell you all the mistakes you have ever made unintentionally? It is not your place to judge anybody for the only time that someone should look for faults is that when they Question themselves.
You are certainly not perfect and based on this you are not in the position to tell anybody they are not either. But on the other hand if someone tells you of your errors I urge you to treat it as a lesson, not a negative thing.
Please my good friends, accept people as they are. The only way someone will ever fix their faults is if they want help, if you ask for help without truly wanting to help yourself expect to hear some truths that may hurt.
May you all find peace within yourselves.
Friday, 15 October 2004
How to be Happy
Happiness is sometimes something hard to obtain, now it goes without saying you don't get something for nothing. Happiness isn't something that you just let in or that just comes. In essence you make you happy, you are the only person with this power.
You may say a certain sound is annoying you but this is simply because you are letting it, if you can let the sound in and just let it pass through you as hard as it may sound you will become much calmer. Now the best way I have discovered to calm the mind is meditation and chanting, many things can be relaxing, and by relaxing I mean relaxing not lazing. Work, Meditation, Writing. Many things can calm the mind down. I believe it is essential to have a calm mind to stay happy.
Somebody annoys you? Is it this persons fault they annoy you? NO!! now if this person annoys you whether they are doing it on purpose or not, it will upset your mental state.. but it is because you are not in a decent mental state that they annoy you. You can accept things and just live without making everything seem hostile.
Unfortunately controlling the mind to be happy is not an easy task and it really does need you to start looking at yourself a lot more. When you get annoyed or upset step back and ask yourself how this is happening, then ask yourself how you can fix it, now I don't mean go and smack the person who is making you annoyed in the nose so they shut up, I mean an internal fix, take some deep breaths and focus your mind on positive thoughts.
A good way to be happy is to just be positive, also if you do things for others it is very fulfilling and it has always been said what you give out you get back(Karma).
Do not resort to external things for your happiness. Why do certain people make you happy? Because you let them, not because they are special. Why is it that one of your friends is made happy by you and they make you happy, but that friends friend makes your friend happy but not you? Because you make let them annoy you, its that simple.
Now it has been tested(As from "The Art Of Happiness") that if you Said to yourself, I wish I was [X] everyday then you will be unhappy, but if you said I'm glad I'm not [x] then you will appreciate life more. Be more accepting of life and don't take things for granted as much. Many people are born with disabilities, what about third world countries and countries at war? You really have the life of luxury! Be grateful for the life you live.
Mind is over matter, so if you can say to yourself I will be happy, I will accept this person, then you will, the mind is the big tool for your happiness!
Never expect anything from anybody or anywhere, this will lead to your own demise. You can only rely on yourself for happiness and this is fact. Love yourself, meet yourself, look at yourself.. this is the only way.
If somebody gets angry at you or bullies you, let them win, it may make you upset but it is better than getting angry and gaining the bad Karma from this situation, if you let someone win you will gain back good Karma (this is very hard even I find this hard to do).
I think for now this is all I can say about Happiness, I may be back with more.
I hope this was insightful for some of you and may you all be happy!
Related posts by me:
What is real Happiness?
Life Is Ever Changing
The title probably could be and very much is impermanence. Your mind is ever changing you will never be the same person ever, the things you see and have lived, the new decisions that you make every second change you the atoms and the blood in your body is always different every moment.
Now when it comes to relating to people be cautions, for they change themselves all the times, this may be to their own demise but if you have created some attachment to them then you will end up severely hurt. I have found this in my life, my heart was once torn in two after a person I cared for changed.
The only person you can only really trust is yourself! you know who you are, or at least you can discover yourself with a little effort and some green tea(really it helps :-P), you can see who you truly are.
Like a rivers molecules are ever chaning so are the people around you. One day you may be their best friends for whatever reason, the next you may do something with good intention and end up their worst enemy. Be cautions of how you associate with people.
Every action you perform, this affects your changes to yourself and those of the people around you, be cautious of the changes in the river of life you make with your actions.
Creating attachment and relationships with other beings is almost unavoidable in life, now there is, in essence no problem with this. But it is the extent to which you create the relationship and of course the intensity, this person may die suddenly, how do you feel? As harsh as it sounds this is a possibility. You must understand things in life, and understand your ever changing self to really be able to accept the hardest outcomes in life.
Be a mirror unto yourself, whenever you change clothes you can see wether you like them or not... see your changes in yourself, ask yourself are they good or bad and make the correct amendments! You will never be perfect, but the most perfect person is that whom can see and fix his own problems.
Do not try and fix others problems, for with your imperfections you are certainly not qualified, accept the everchanging state of life, and the imperfections in life, for it is the imperfections in life that make it interesting and challenging.
Don't drown in the river of life friends, flow with it for resistance, a desire to stay were you are will only make you sink. Float and follow the flow, this is the path to the ocean of happiness!
May you all Be Happy
Sex.. NO ITS NOT PORN
Now to me Sex honestly is something you only do with a person you care for. You use it to express how you love the person or even to just have a jolly good time with them.. but I feel that it essentially should only be done with those you care for.
Now in society today we have many people sleeping around and just being irresponsible. I think it is sad to an extent but in essence it is also just something material that you may end up regreting too. There are so many STDs going around and too many nasty little things. This of course isnt the only reason not to stop and not the most important but as you have been told numerous times it is a good reason to be careful.
Now I used to hold the view that sex is only for baby making... I threw that away because I think it is such a beautiful act. The intensity between two people during passionate sex is marvelous. The relationship that develops during fun sex is very strong also. But I do beleive when this act is commited you are releasing a part of yourself to this person.
All I can say is be careful of that which you do for it could lead to yourself, really look at this act of love and try and apply it in the right way with the right person.
May you all be at peace.
Thursday, 14 October 2004
The God Syndrome
Now honestly I do not know what creates a person who wants to have all the power, personally I think it is best to be simple and happy then powerful and well.. not so happy.
People desire power for acceptance, to be best, to be spiteful maybe even vengeful. Now of course in some situations you need somebody to be designated the controller over a certain element, such as the workplace with your boss and the like.
Have you ever had somebody stand over you, this person thinks they are more superior or better than you? Well never fear, don't get upset by this. Generally the people who do this are not happy.
I think it is part of someones search for happiness that develops the God Syndrome. People who fail happiness or resort to materialism at an early age may want general power as an attempt to fix their unhappiness. With power comes money also and with money comes more material possesions.. and of course more desire and pain.
Now generally people are not aware that materialism creates suffering, people keep indulging knowing only that short term good. Its like having some chocolate or a good tasting junk food, there are good results at that time and you generally only see the good until you are educated about the bad effects.
These people may never find happiness for they have created their own self suffering, their own pain and loop. The only thing we can do is be kind to them and attempt to teach them through example and interaction.
Competition can be good in life but there is always bred someone who wants to be number one, and of course being number one can start the God Syndrome off as well. Competition is aimed to be friendly these days but it truly never will be. The systems we use Gold, Silver Bronze, it always make you strive to be the best. If you beleive you are good and get 4th then you get hurt.
I honestly have nothing that I can say that you can use to apply this information to your life except maybe try yo be aware of yourself developing this and also be understanding of people with this suffering.
May you all be happy and live in peace.
What is real Happiness?
Material Happiness. Material happiness is basically a kind of rush that is brought on from gaining something you wanted or desired, if you wanted a new computer and you finally got one you would be happy. Now even though your material desire was satisifed humans get bored of things easy, and this leads to the wanting and craving of even more material possesions. Now this happiness does not last, it lasts for a short time then you want more things creating more pain, or even if you are content with what you have there is the fact of impermance, it truly is impossible to create a relationship with anything because everything is ever changing.
Now there is another happiness on what I could say is based on love. This is the happiness of seeing your loved ones happy, this is also based sometimes on them making you happy, now personally I like this form of happiness but it can bring you down too. When you get attached to a certain person they may leave you or die, or sometimes be mean to you, now more often than not this will make you very unhappy. There is also the relationships you created with generally everyone around you and very often this can lead you to blame somebody for something that happens to you.. again more suffering is created.
Now the last happiness I would like to discuss is contentment with self. The only true way to keep your happiness up is to be content with yourself, you must be happy with yourself as you are. Now based on this I don't mean go out and get on a ego trip... this is simular to material happiness and will get you hurt. What I mean is be happy with yourself, realise that you can make others happy also for giving is also another way to be truly happy. If you can give yourself to others in the end you will be truly happy, you must accept your actions as your own, do not create blame, just be and live.
You can apply the last happiness type to the relationship category too, accepting responsibility for your own actions, also when somebody yells at you or gets snappy you can look at them knowing that they are not perfect as you are not, ask yourself why they are like this and maybe help or just leave it bee without getting offended. There is much more to this than can be said in this post.
I hope you all find happiness with yourself.
A Dream For the World
The various different cultures in the world, the religions, the social communities, the different views, will it ever be in harmony? I doubt it. People tend to hold on to their own views too much, they would rather hold their ego as opposed to get on with someone and be in harmony.
People need to accept each other! Right now as you are reading this post, many of your views will differ from mine and the next person who reads it , now out of all the people who are some how connected to this post can they call get on? Well in theory yes. All that needs to be done is an understanding and acceptance of the basic human existence, undersand we all just want to be happy.
We all want to be accepted we all want to be right.. right? Why? Well think about it, deep down it is because we want to be accepted, by not accepting others views its ultimately a strive for you to be accepted by making others understand and accept your aparently right view. Now does religion, skin color, sexual preference, life preference or personal views matter or need to be the same for co-existence? NO!!
Although co-existence is hard at current due to the overwheleming development of the human ego it is a possibilty. Now if we all got along we wouldn't be striving for acceptance. Life would be fun and peaceful, people wouldn't get killed during war and things would progress easier. There would be no desire for one country to have more money than the next.
Many countries today are competing for power, many people are also competing for power. Power ultimately does nothing for the only true power you have and need is that over yourself.
The material wants and desires in the world serve no real purpose, people want more and crave more, this simply makes others who do not have what you have jealous creating less peace and if you don't get what you want you can also end up in pain further.
What can we do to fix the world? Well we need to work on ourselves as individuals. Now we cannot force another person to adhere to our view and of course the only thing we can do is make and example.
Is individuality a good thing? Well as bad as this may sound NO, if we were all simular than we wouldn't be jealous of others, we wouldn't create problems. I cannot say much more but people trying to stand out from the croud creates problems for those people who are "beneath" you. All I can say is think of what you are doing when you do something, try to think of everyone and the positive effects your actions will have on the community as a whole not just the benifits for yourself.
Now my dream is for a peaceful world, we can live in harmony, help me move towards this world brothers and sisters!
If we live in peace we can develop the world more, then the aliens might give us a chance!!! :-)
May you all find peace.
Wednesday, 13 October 2004
Cause and Effect
When someone leaves you in a relationship there is a cause, usually it is something to do with something you have done or not done. If you get hit by a car it is ultimately your fault for being in a position to be hit by the car. A rock falls and hits you, whose fault was it? it was yours for being there. Why did it fall? Because it was dropped or because your Karma created a reason for it to fall.
Now how can you apply this to life? Basically what I can say is that nothing happens without cause. If you want money or love, it won't just come to you magically, an email will not arrive saying I want to give you 3,400,000 Pounds without initial cause. If you want something in your life make a cause, perform an action, talk to people, work, and plan things out.
The best way to put it is, Get off your bum and do something so something good will happen to you!!!
May you all perform the actions for the cause of your own happiness.
The Mind is Big.. REAL BIG!!!!
Now when you think something based on what you see or no the mind makes it real, when you see something and the mind sees it, the mind makes it real. The mind makes the world go round... your world.
If you wanted to heal yourself just think it! The mind can make you stronger, weaker, healthier, sicker. The power of thought is amazing. If you think and beleive "I will find someone this week" it will happen, trust me.
Don't forget there is Karma related to the mind too, some things may be harder to get due to previous actions you have carried out. But if you do right and continue to think of others, what you wish will come to you one day.
Every Action has a reaction, and using the mind to beleive is the action, the reaction is simply a positive result. Now know your limits, don't get your hopes up based on someone elses commitements, just know something will happen, something you know can happen, this is all it takes.
The mind really is the biggest and most powerful think in the universe, It is your most powerful tool, use it well and you will be happy.
Catch 22... Love Again!
Not everyone is like me and not everyone who is like me does and reacts the same way as me but I have made an observation, and not a pretty one at that.
We look for love, when we find someone we tend to think nothing will never happen because it is what we may be used to, now this thought alone leads to a negative result. Also sometimes we get down, we tell these people and they must think "I don't want to be caught up with someone with these problems", also we may end up avoiding these people for a period of time because we don't want these people to think that, then they end up disliking us and thinking we were ignoring them.
Now what this means for us is that we create our own failure, through that mental reflection in our mind. As I have said the mind is the most powerful thing in the universe. We are perfectly capable of making things work my friends, we just have to work on this negative snowballing. So my friends lets try our hardest to think positive and be positive. Life is an act anyway.
May you All find love.