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2010-12-30T01:34:00.003+11:00

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Ideas to Change the World

2010-09-09T02:49:00.001+10:00

Although extremely idealistic, here are some ideas to change the world:

Everyone is “given” a house, all houses will be the same. People will be placed in areas close to their workplaces. This would allow for car pooling, lower emissions and less congestion.
Force workplaces to have staggered starting times. For example 6am-11am. This would prevent congestion and some emissions.
Have one economical car for everyone, no performance vehicles. Add limits to the vehicles to prevent dangerous driving.
Stop production of unnecessary items and foods.
Dedicate whole industries to supplying developing and 3rd world countries. We waste so much food as it is and have so much we don’t need.
Change the focus of research and development from profit to world gain.
Form a unified government throughout the world where every country cooperates, all wealth and resources are shared and no country tries to “1up” the other.
Stop trying to change the natural environment to suit us, change us the suit the environment.
Stop eating animals, we can easily supplement our diet. We would quickly evolve to accommodate this.
Start doing things for other people instead of ourselves.

The Human Impact

2010-09-08T13:16:00.004+10:00

Some unfortunately saddening links:
World's smallest seahorse faces extinction after BP oil spill
Critically Endangered Whales Stop Feeding Thanks To Russian Oil & Gas Exploration

As humans, we take almost everything for granted. We are extremely wasteful, and instead of evolving and living in harmony with nature, we change nature and have a huge impact on the environment. Some steps can be taken to change the impact we have and we need to start looking at ourselves, not just as individuals but as a society.

Humans have a huge impact on both fauna and flora. From simply using the seas to search for oil sites, we have had a dramatic effect on the feeding patterns of whales. Something more dramatic as the recent BP oil spill is threatening an entire species. Sit and think about the things we are doing and have done around the world from introducing species, clearing out natural habitats, greenhouse emissions and even every day things such as driving to and from work. Humans need to make some huge changes to the way we treat the world.

Humans can take simple steps to improve the state of the natural world. We simply do not need to cut down trees, drill for oil, build new roads while destroying forests or have such a high carbon emission level. We could easily cut down on these things, most of which are for material gain and are never out of necessity. We need to change the focus from ourselves and change it outwards to the rest of the world.

If we change our focus from ourselves, we can make a huge impact. What people do not realize, is that the effect we have one the rest of the world, in turn has a huge impact on us individually. If we stop creating consumer demand for self satisfaction, we will stop the impact on the environment, stop damaging ecosystems through collections of materials and so forth. Every animal and plant in the world has an impact on the functioning and harmony of the world, in turn having an impact on is, either instantly significant or progressive.

We really need to wake up, and smell the roses. We are having such a huge impact we don't realize it, and through simple steps and by changing the focus from ourselves to the rest of the world, we can make planet earth a better place to live. Somewhere that was once a lush beautiful natural world.

The Mind as an Absolute

2010-09-07T21:09:00.002+10:00

Before I start, let me make something clear: This post will probably no more than some random ideas, will probably lack structure, and will probably have a lot of disorder. This will also cover some things I have previously written about. Now to it.
From my perspective, the mind is the only thing we can really class as absolute. Everything else, even that outside of our control and external to us is relative. The mind can make a situation out of nothing, it can perceive something that isn’t there(or maybe it really is) and it controls everything in the material world.
Thanks to Descartes, we have the rationalization that everything external to our mind cannot be proven. For example, I am longsighted and need to wear reading glasses, this shows that my senses are fallible, it shows that they cannot be relied on. Due to this fact, I cannot know for sure that the information I am receiving from the outside world is 100% correct. If this is the case, how can I know anything is actually real?
This is all ground work to emphasize the main point. Not only does this fallible interpretation apply to information received externally, but it also applies to ideas, the information we process internally. For example: if I tell a joke, one person may laugh and another may not. Why is this? Why is it that another person who also thinks(we will assume this for the moment) reacts differently?
If you can interpret something differently, on both a physical level and mental level, does this not mean that we are the creators of our own world? Yes we have patterns, ways of thinking that to some extent automate our reactions and interpretations of things, but these can be change.
I will leave you with this to ponder however: If we know we are thinking because we observe our own thoughts, how do we know for sure someone else is thinking? How do we know other people are real?

Need to Want Less

2010-09-06T18:15:00.000+10:00

Check out this groovy page http://recoveringlazyholic.com/needtowant.html I think it makes a bold statement about the world, its focus and what it needs to change to.

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The Human Cage

2010-09-06T02:14:00.000+10:00

Something for everyone to ponder: "Money is like a bird cage for people". Would having all the money in the world mean we had no cage? Would it mean we could fly around free? Or would having no money constraints or no ties to an illusion economy be true freedom?

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Sleepless Nights

2010-09-04T23:46:00.001+10:00

Lying here, unable to sleep,
Nothing I can do, just end up thinking of you,
It might sound a little weak,
But it is such a feat, something that’s impossible to beat,
That fact that I’m with you.

Lame Jokes Collection

2010-09-03T20:30:00.001+10:00

What do you call a sleeping cow?
A bulldozer.

What did Batman say to Robin before they got in the car?
Robin, get in the car.

When is a car not a car?
When it turns into a driveway.

What do you call a deer with no eyes?
No eye dear.
What do you call a deer with no legs and no eyes?
Still no eye dear.

What's long, yellow and fruity?
An apple in disguise.

What did the dog say to the tree?
bark!

Why was Tigger looking in the toilet?
To find Pooh.

Why did the booger cross the road?
Because he was being picked on.

What time did the man go to the dentist?
Tooth hurty.

How to you organize a space party?
You planet.

How do you start a book about ducks?
With an introducktion.

Why don't anteaters get sick?
Because they're full of anty-bodies.

What did the digital watch say to his Mum?
"Look Mum no hands."

Two peanuts were walking down a spooky road at night... One was a-salted.

A termite walks into a pub and asks, "Is the bar tender here?"

What did the apple say to the orange?
Nothing stupid, apples don't talk.

Why can't a chicken coop have more than 2 doors?
Because if it had 4 doors it would be a chicken sedan.

What did Batman say to Robin before they got in the car?
Robin, get in the car.

What's brown and sounds like a bell?
Dung!

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The Tragedy of the Cyclic Existence in the Material World

2010-08-26T08:23:00.000+10:00

Today in modern society, we seem to be trapped in an unfortunately cyclic existence. We go to work everyday, make money, pay the bills and never really experience life. What is it we contribute to society?

We may be working in a retail store, or in IT fixing computers, but what contribution does this truly make? All we are really doing, is going to work, assisting a corporate entity so we ourselves can profit. We use this money to buy flash cars, big houses, and many other superficial things that we really don't need to find "true happiness". We need to assess what we are really achieving in our every day life.

What could we do to improve the world and our lives? Unfortunately if everyone quit their jobs, the world wouldn't function correctly, however there are some things we can change. We can start volunteering to a meaningful cause, we could donate within our means and of course, we could simply be better people by helping our fellow humans out. There are some other small changes we could make, some of these however, are extremely difficult to implement.

We need to start cutting down on self indulgence, money does NOT buy happiness. We can start by living within out means, not buying extravagant cars, houses and TVs, and simply start enjoying the simpler things in life. What is the most exciting thing you have done lately? It might pay to step outside of your boundaries, go bungee jumping, kayaking, rock climbing, sky diving or simply go out to the wilderness and take a hike through our beautiful, and natural world. Changing these things in our day to day lives can easily lead to true happiness.

True happiness is not attained by having the best of the best, being a millionaire, being popular or having all the latest gadgets, happiness is indeed and inside job. We could divide "levels" happiness into a scale, but in my own opinion, I think there is only one type of "true happiness". Happiness comes from within, accepting and appreciating things for what they are, being content with life, and most of all, having a kind and generous heart. Loving kindness is indeed the true method to achieve happiness, whether you simply be a better person to the people you know and encounter, start donating to charity out of the good of your heart, volunteering for a worthy cause such as rescuing animals or assisting people in need or changing our career all together, you will find more fulfillment, peace of mind, and happiness.

Get out there people, change the world!

Honesty, Love, and Other Variations of Definition In Modern Society

2008-07-30T02:34:00.000+10:00

In modern society it seems a lot of words or concepts have had a change of definition. These vary from words/concepts such as: Honesty, Friendship, Love, Happiness and many others. Unfortunately for the few of us who still try to adhere to the "old" way of thinking it can cause conflicting signals within out minds and result in a irrational thinking.

Love is probably the broadest statement any one person can make, now aside from my previous discussions on the topic of Love lets try and find the modern day definition of "relationship love". Relationship love seems to be a very two way thing, when both parties are exchanging a said "love currency" (hugs, sex, money, cuddles, affection etc) it appears that both parties seem to be content for a certain period of time but of course this is a very materialistic viewpoint. Unfortunately the downside here is that one person eventually gets frustrated or tries to leave.

Unfortunately when a person tries to disconnect themselves there doesn't seem to be any slack given to the "mistake maker", it seems to be a simple case of move on and forget the other person even existed. This is somewhat unfortunate as "real Love" is a currency that seems to be lost in a world where everything but materialism is futile.

A lot of people have their own personal demons, these can affect their Friendships, Loves, Happiness and a lot of other things in their life. I think it really is time for the world to wake up and say "you matter as well and I understand your not perfect" remember we all have our own flaws too, forgiveness is a great gift.

-Ant

Now Is a Good Time

2008-06-06T07:47:00.000+10:00

Now is a great moment to live in. When we see the past as an important aspect of our being we fail to see the beauty of this moment. It deminishes our ability to appreciate the beauty in life and the positive aspects of those around us. This is also relevant to thoughts pertaining to the future.

Many people, myself included strive to be something tomorrow or remember how we blundered yesterday and let it affect our mind and mental wellbeing. Unfortunately the mind is like a child, it needs to be taught how to sit still.

With the childlike mind we find ourselves competing with our own thoughts or character. You may have trouble admitting your wrong, finding yourself in an argument and getting frustrated, getting irritated with someone and dwelling it for minutes hours days or even years. We need to let go of our ego, we need to appreciate on the things now and find joy in our everday being.

Try to let go of the past, its not something that you have control over, you can't change it but simply look for the good or the lessons that can be learned from it, allowing concious decions to be made. Try not to think too far ahead for it will leaving you wishing you were already there. Drift to far back or forward and you may find yourself stuck in the sand of samsara.

Remember:

"There is never nothing happening" - The Peaceful Warrior

Musical Resources

2008-03-09T09:15:00.000+11:00

Hey all, thought I might post some resources that every music enthusiast(mostly electronic music) needs to know about.

General:
Last.FM -Â Track you played tracks, creates charts based on what you play and recommends music
Trance.nu - Fantastic trance forum

Production:
FutureProducers.com - Music production forum
Alex's FL Studio Trance Tutorial 1 2 -Basic Trance production tutorial for the newbie
Tutorial master list @ tranceaddict.com

DJing:
DJTutor - The best free resource for learning to DJ

The Best Feeling..

2008-03-09T09:01:00.000+11:00

Your lying there bored out of your brains, you look to the turntables on the desk not knowing whether you can be bothered. Although you feel very lethargic you manage to walk up stand behind them and push power on the 3 components. Sitting there with the flashing lights the groovy slipmats, amd the funky sliders you cue up one of your favourite tracks.... The music plays, you get the feel for the music throw in some FX, it comes to you.. you cue the next track get it beatmatched.. 1234.. there's the cue for the transition, you move the slider the mix is going well all of a sudden BAM!!!!! your in the mix your on top of the world, what could be better than the feeling of doing what you love most? After playing several tracks your finished and your feeling so much more accomplished to what you where 30minutes ago... You didn't regret it.. You just did it!

The Future of Mankind

2008-01-22T22:37:00.000+11:00

With the interest in TU24 which is scheduled to make a close pass or an impact on earth on the 29th I would like to take the chance to discuss the future of mankind. In the case that some catastrophic incident occurred here on earth what would the consequences be?

A mass decrease in the population could ultimately result in unity of mankind, death could be turned into a positive. Without government to control the world would we strive towards a better future?

Religion holds many of the answers about life buried within its cryptic or philosophical texts, the point of existence is in my opinion to be able to release animalistic instincts and to Love fully without limitations, to get along with each other. With a society so driven by greed and need we seem to forget that we are all the same, that we all have the same root cause, either you perceive that root cause as nothing, the mind or something else, it ultimately still comes about from the same root element.

Why do we find it so necessary to compete with others, to fall into this matrix of cyclic existence, what do we actually do with our lives if anything at all? Why do we aspire to be more when we have everything and nothing just in the same?

In it's current state the human race is headed for disaster whether it be natural or man made, unless the greater populations steps up and realizes its potential as a race able to release its primal instincts a horrible future awaits us. Moving towards a greater future where we do not let governments and corporations control our free will, where we can work towards betterment of ourselves instead of our wallets, when will we instigate this simple foundation for life?

Expectation and Let Down

2007-11-15T18:51:00.000+11:00

Sometimes in life we feel let down and get quite emotional about it. Someone may have promised or said they will do something but they let you down. I'm sure everyone has experienced this and been upset by this, the emotional response need not be negative.

There are a few ways to approach let down. The key element to the emotional response of being let down is expectation, when we place an expectation on an object external to our mind we will always put ourselves in a venerable position, a position to be let down. How many times do we let ourselves down? Recall ever having said you will do something for yourself and then ended up procrastinating?

How can we trust an external source to bring us happiness or content? The point is we can't. This doesn't mean we don't live life without trusting people, it simply means instead of creating expectation we just try to understand that people are not perfect, they make mistakes, get caught up in material possessions, become distracted, are sometimes forgetful and sometimes self centred.... Agreed? People are generally not like this all the time but are you perfect? How many times have you let someone down?

We project our ideals, expectations and ideas onto other people, it is likely we will eventually be "let down", be understanding however, for we ourselves are also the culprits of this "crime".

Remeber, nobody is perfect, just be happy withing yourself.

-Luzzle Pure.

Practice, Practice, Practice Some More!

2007-11-05T21:50:00.000+11:00

In life we have things that we want to do but aren't confident with or don't have the ability to do. It may be that you have just begun a certain skill and the reason for your lack of skill is obvious. You may also have been attempting this skill for many years. A lot of people beat themselves up over not being proficient in a certain area or being incapable, this is the opposite of what is needed.

Just do it! Don't think about it, don't think ahead just do it! Maybe go back to square one, start practicing the basics, build up a solid foundation. Going back to square one can usually be of benefit.

Just keep at things and enjoy it, don't compare yourself, don't think ahead, focus on what you are doing at the moment and when you do something that you enjoy or want to be proficient at reward yourself when you are done practicing or learning!

Just chillout peeps, you don't have to be perfect or be the best straight away!

There is Always a Way Forward

2007-11-05T21:40:00.000+11:00

Sometimes life gets you down and things come to a head, you can't see a way out. We all get down at times and find it hard to push forward but its important to remember that there is a way forward.

Sometimes you might be down for an obvious reason or down due to external factors or maybe you just feel down for no reason. Don't give up! Think of why your down. Have you ever felt this way before? What happened after? If its something beyond your control is it worth worrying about? If you have control why not do something?

Its always good to put things on paper, write down how you feel, what you want to do about it. Never give up though, this is the important thing, you are worth it and you can get through anything!

Peace Friends.

A Noteable Whinge

2007-11-02T18:55:00.000+11:00

Just thought I might have a whinge about Daylight Savingsâ€¦ It sucks. Here in WA we like to be different.. We prefer not to conform to the standards of every other state/country. We do not like DLS! Damn politicians.

Luzzle Pure’s Top Tracks for week ending 30/09/07

2007-10-02T00:03:00.000+10:00

1. Leader of the Nation - GuiltÂ - Trance
2. Antic - The Ultimate - Trance
3. High Contrast - The Basement Track - DnB(Liquid Funk)
4.Â Blu Mar Ten - Anytime Soon (NFI Mix) - DnB(Liquid Funk)
5.Â Sounds Destructive - Vitamin Funk - DnB(Liquid Funk)

Helping Others Makes Everything Better

2007-09-11T08:43:00.000+10:00

Helping others makes things so much better. When your down you can do many things to make yourself feel better, channeling your energy into a hobby or something creative is always good, reading, relaxing, all these things can put your mind at ease however, helping someone else can make a world of difference.

When you have compassion for others and care about them you have the ability to help them, having compassion and love for everyone is important. When you help someone else with a problem it gives you a sense of true reward. Helping others can also help solve your own problems, when the world gets you down and you channel your strength into helping someone else, the solutions you provide can help you find answers to your own problems and in most cases see that your problems can have solutions.

Offer your hand to someone in need, it will give you more benefit than you think.

What Can I do For Myself?

2007-09-06T03:37:00.000+10:00

Everything has come to a head, I don't know what to do. I have had two events that have shown something is seriously wrong. I have seen the relevant people and yet nothing. Am I impatient? or is there something else that needs doing? I can't be the best I can be without sorting out myself first.

My only friend at the moment is the journal next to my bed. I hope in a week things look a lot better.

What can I do for you?

2007-08-02T03:49:00.000+10:00

What can I do for you? It's a question and a way of thinking that I have neglected so very readily these past months or years even. People tend to focus on themselves a lot or focus on making an impression, being the centre of attention. This isn't something we generally do without realizing it, and if we do realize it, its generally too late. The good news with realizing anything is that you can at least do something.

Moving forward and realizing our mistakes is a positive step towards self improvement. I'm definitely no expert and probably could be dubbed a "slow learner" in many areas of my life. Certain events aren't worth beating yourself up and if you are going to think over and over about them, make it constructive.

In your thoughts think about where you went wrong, now ask yourself, was the focus too much on you? If yes then figure out ways of channelling your energy back out in positive ways.

Of course you can't drain your energy, you need to look after you sometimes. One cannot channel their energy outwards unless they have some inner energy to power their efforts.

The key points here are: Focus on giving, Look after yourself, Be positive.

Anyways thats enough from me. Be positive and SMILE!

Like I Said: You Can Be What You Want to Be(Dj Luzzle P.)

2007-07-25T04:35:00.000+10:00

As I said before my friends, you can be what you want to be and do what you want to do if you put your mind to it. For so long I have aspired to spin tunes on some decent decks whether they be CD or Vinyl and I managed to get some in the last week. Not so good yet but hopefully the huge hole that is now in my pocket will pay off and, even if it doesn't, I can make the money back by selling them.

Friends I implore you to follow your dreams, don't think things are unrealistic, if you sit down and think about things and plan them out most things are achievable. Decide on a plan A. then a plan B. the plan B being your backup escape plan in case things go bums up.

Life is too short to live in a cycle controlled by dollar values. Don't live an average life: going to work, making your company money, going home, and then paying bills. Live it to the full, find a way to get somewhere you truly want to be!

Peace Friends!

Still Holding On

2007-07-10T04:17:00.000+10:00

The problem with relationships is that we get used to what we have and when it goes we miss it. Once we are forced to move on from someone we sometimes try to replace it by looking for the traits of our previous partner in someone else. Unfortunately looking for this is unproductive and causes us more pain than its worth. The key is to let go and move on from what you had with that person.

The advice I give to those who start looking back on their past relationship when with a new partner is stick it out, some people tend to give in on new relationships because they think that a new one wont be as rewarding as the previous one but sometimes forcing yourself to see the new person for who they are and seeing if you like what they are can be the best way to get over someone.

Getting over someone who you have loved an incredible amount can be a big effort but it is possible if you first realize your not over them. Come one all you people with broken hearts, smile and look to bring down your walls.

Escapism

2007-06-14T01:35:00.000+10:00

We run away everyday, we try to hide from our problems. I have spoken about this before but people have the tendency of cover up their problems in some even more dangerous ways. Pain can be hard to handle but it is definitely not something you want to cover up with an altered state of mind.

Drugs can be a good "party-goers recreational tool" but they should not be used with an extreme frequency and should not be used when you are feeling low. People who use drugs of any form are using them as some form of escapism but people who use them to cover up feelings could be forming a dangerous psychological addiction.

Face your problems in the real world because when you make them go away by the use of drugs, life just gets harder and harder and so does the addiction.

Bottling Things Up

2007-06-13T00:55:00.000+10:00

People have a tendency to hold things back and let them boil inside. We may have for example lost a love one. After initially feeling the pain we then hold it back so that we can apparently "move forward through life". Unfortunately this method of coping with things is unproductive and does more damage than good.

When you hold things back you put up walls that you may not be aware that you have built. You may not be able to let new things into your life. Accepting the fact that what you have lost is gone, reflecting on the good times and harbouring the memory is the only thing I can recommend that you do. If we live life by ignoring the pain, ignoring the feelings we have and trying to erase memories we will fall into a pit that we may not be able to escape from. Face the pain for it is an experience worth having to move forward, but make sure you harbour the acceptance of loss as soon as you are ready.

Where to Go

2007-06-12T01:06:00.000+10:00

Life is full of bumps and hurdles, we go through so much and a lot of the time we never know what we want. We think about what we can achieve, what would make us happy, but we also seem to have trouble finding it. Is it as simple as just coming to terms with what we already have? Can we get past all these difficulties and these pains and "just be"?

These are questions I am not going to try and answer for everyone is at a different level. Everyone needs to find what makes them happy but I would suggest looking inside yourself instead of out. Try to come to terms with what has been and gone, what you have lost, where you are now and what you have.

Life can be wonderful at times, just think positive and never too far forward.

Spaced

2007-06-05T09:40:00.000+10:00

Its an odd feeling, a feeling of just "being", you just do what you feel like doing, you do whatever feels fitting. You do what you have to when you have to but nothing seems to matter but, its not in a way thats bad... it "just is".Â You don't care where you end up, you don't care what your doing, its like your observing reality just pass by and you can only nudge it to steer it in the right direction.

How do you escape it? Do you want to? To just let it be or to try and steer yourself back to the reality you are used to... Where has it all gone?

Haunted

2007-05-25T00:06:00.000+10:00

Feelings emotions fade in an out,
The past thats follows me,
Love lost in my ear it shouts,
Look there and see,
Move forward for the past is history.

You Can Have Success and Find Love

2007-05-18T07:45:00.000+10:00

In life we get to down on ourselves, we always say "I wish" but never look to what we can actually do to get to a destination. Success isn't that unachievable like I mentioned in an earlier post. All one has to do in life is find what it is one can have and find out what one needs to do to get to their destination.

You must not let negative thoughts ever get in your way, this is critical. The path to a destination usually never goes without problems but if you truly aim towards your goal and hurdle or roadblock is passable.

Certain journeys however may require one to just be patient and use the focus of your mind to achieve them. The mind is a powerful thing. Finding love is one of those things you need to be patient with but it will come, just keep wanting it but maybe stop looking for it, ignore it for a while and it should come to your door looking to be let in with loving arms.

I again implore everyone out there to never give up on their dreams and never stop pushing through live aiming towards their goals. Start waiting for love and stop looking, keep being positive and keep wanting it but don't put your focus on one thing.

Aim For the Skies

2007-05-17T07:31:00.000+10:00

If you have a dream I emplore you to follow it. So many people today are unhappy in situations they wish they weren't in, they may have a job but not a career. If you find something that you are enjoy or think you would enjoy do it. Finding something in life that has purpose is important for a happy life.

I have found in life that some things are worth going for, life can be a tough one. Studying is one of those things that one needs to learn to do for example. If you have found it hard to focus on things in life or have had to many distractions to study towards a dream career throw away all the frustration and do it anyway, set time aside for yourself and put your mind to it, anyone is capable of success.

For those out there who need that little bit of extra motivation I will tell you: YOU CAN DO IT. Throw away those things in your life that are a little bit depressing and a little bit unhealthy and make your life so much better!

Life is great and you can be too! Look to the skies and rise high, you can keep flying and not have to come down.

Respect and Understanding

2007-05-08T21:13:00.000+10:00

There are some people in the world who apply labels to others and judge people for doing things. They associate people with certain groups and think themselves in a place that is right to judge. I have been judged and judged again but do people understand others? Do they really know themselves?

I have come across people who aren't really their own person, they go through life thinking they are in control, stating what they believe in but they themselves are being controlled by others. They can't make their own decisions they listen to others and some of those others do things they state they themselves would never do. They are oblivious to the fact that they should be accepting these people as friends but not as advisors.

People should have respect and understanding for others but they should try and understand the person they are dealing with, instead of taking advice from them when they are incapable of providing well formed advice on what you are asking.

People ared strange beings, avoid forming strong relationships with those who cannot get through life on their own.

Don’t Look for Love

2007-05-08T21:10:00.000+10:00

Looking for love is, as I have learned something that is very unproductive. It is finally that I have given up looking, I simply do not care anymore. You try ever so hard with all your imperfections but whatever you find.. it falls over and you get nowhere.

You find someone that you care for deeply but they end up leaving you, running away, you endure the most painful and impossible scenarios but its not you at fault anymore.. you shouldn't of even tried as the other person is never as willing as you are.

You think you have gotten past the pain but then out of nowhere.. a dream comes with a depressing opening of your eyes into the world, you wish that you had never met that person, you wish you really were over them.

You finally accept that you are still not over them accepting that it may take some more time, don't look for love let it look for you because if you look for love your curse will be pain looking for you.

Perception

2007-03-01T16:14:00.000+11:00

Something random for the day, things are what we perceive them to be and nothing else.

Ever been sitting around and getting all paranoid about what the people across the room are saying about you? Sometimes you crazy nuts might even start thinking that this little fantasy you just created was real and true.

In life we need to be open to interpretation, people take offense to things or assume things because they delude themselves and perceive things their own way, choose to let go and try to see things as they really are, be more mindful of situations so you can enjoy life more, at the very least delude yourself into thinking nobody dislikes you and be nice to them(don't get a big ego though).

A Little Lost

2007-03-01T05:40:00.000+11:00

So as of late I have been having much trouble figuring out what on earth I want to write about, I used to have this strategy of self help and philosophical article writing but now I'm so random and unfocused its not funny.

The worst thing is I think my posts are starting to become the stuff that you tend to get on one of those "normal" blogs, urgh what is the world coming to?

Anyways thats my little piece of nonsense for the moment, if you people would like to throw something romantic, philosophical or would like to risk asking me for advice on something throw it in a comment(see http://livinganillusion.com for past work) Come on guys get my back together!

Music

2007-02-27T22:17:00.000+11:00

Hey all, I just randomly felt like writing something about music, I am not going to drabble on about which genre is best or whose the greatest artist but instead just that music rocks.

Most music seems to have emotion and art in it, in this sense most people can appreciate more than one genre even if they don't like it, I myself although a Trance fan appreciate Classical, Jazz, Rock, Hip Hop and a lot of other genres and in fact I like most of those genres as well, when you listen to a song to hear it for its story or to hear it for what it tells you, you are really doing something special and you could be learning about yourself too.

Its amazing how one song can resemble happiness at a time of being okay and sadness when you are sad, don't you love listening to songs that perk you up? Doesn't it amaze you how so many people like different genres and different songs?

I just think music is amazing! Everyone crank their tunes!

Listening to: Push - Strange World (2002 Remake)

Pointless Blobble

2007-02-27T22:03:00.000+11:00

Hey everyone welcome to my new blog, this site will be mirroring http://illuzian.livejournal.com with some added extras. I hope everyone enjoys my randomness, possible depth and lack thereof and whatever the hell I write about, stay tuned!

Listening to: Push - Strange World (2002 Remake)

Philosophical Debate

2006-07-02T09:27:00.000+10:00

I was at work and was discussing randomly with a friend Descartes Philosophical argument of Cogito Ergo Sum(I am thinking, therefore I exist) and one of my other work colleagues brought up the argument that we cannot take ownership of thoughts and cannot prove they are our own, I did some research and I believe this statement must come from the school of Skepticism, I cannot find the philosopher who developed this theory but it seems like a valid argument, What if my thoughts are shared? What if I am the result of higher beings thought? How can I absolutely know that these thoughts are mine and mine alone?... The answer is cannot know but can assume.

I cannot with all accuracy prove that the thoughts that I am thinking are truly my own but I can assume they are, at the moment of the proposed argument I was a but tripped out, it seemed completely valid, I could think of no counter argument, however, based on perception although logically not fully accurate (not accurate based on the Cogito Ergo Sum theory) I was able to think of a possible argument against the theory, although also based on assumption because it includes variables such as awareness and perception it appears to be more logical and make more sense, it also lacks the element of imagination or speculation.

Here is a copy of the email I just sent to my colleague(who is currently not at work):

Now although you cannot prove that the thoughts that I think are mine you also cannot prove that they are not, the following logic seems to make sense from my view:

The only thoughts that I am aware of are my own, I cannot prove that another being is thinking I only assume that other sentient beings on the same level think because they have similar actions to my own, because the only thoughts that I can be *aware* of are the ones I am thinking them, it must then be assumed they are my thoughts, now because the ability to perceive a higher beings existence is based on assumption from almost no evidence other than my own creativity then again, I must assume that the thoughts I am thinking are my own.

The thoughts that I think can be assumed my own because only I am certain that I am thinking. A 3rd person can be assumed to be thinking because they may behave similar to myself, I am human they are human therefore I assume they think. A higher being cannot be assumed to be thinking because I do not have any logical proof that it exists except by creativity.. it cannot be literally perceived and interpreted, therefore it is not known whether it is thinking or not.

Another point to go further to take ownership of my own thoughts is as follows:
At a moment of experience alone or amongst a group the feelings are dependent on my situation therefore the thought that arises from my perception from my maybe inaccurate senses is still by assumption my own because I assume only I can be in exactly the same situation at that one time, so the variables time, surroundings, feeling, and perception combined together to create situational thought can only be known logically to occur once, the only other way to counter that statement that I can see is that there maybe parallel universes and that my overall thought is subject to a collective of individuals some how linked to me that create the overall thoughts that I have, but again I cannot literally have perception of these alternate beings therefore it cannot be known whether they are thinking.

Now although the theory that my thoughts are not mine and that I cannot take ownership of them because I cannot know that only I am thinking them still stands, from logic and evidence I cannot with reason prove that any other sentient being actual thinks because there is only an assumption of thinking, therefore it comes back to the thoughts that I am thinking are imagining another beings existence.

Thought can be known but cannot be perceived only assumed, therefore only I know that I am thinking, I cannot know that another being is thinking/imagining my existence or having the same thoughts I am simply because I cannot prove the existence of thoughts other than those of my own conscious mind.

Most things are assumed or imagined, the things that can be assumed based on what we define as literal perception appear to have more validity.

Therefore the validity of Cogito Ergo Sum should still be valid based on the above argument.

Now I am sure there are some elements of my theory that could be argued but its pretty much the only argument I could think of, If anyone thinks it lacks critical components or even knows the philosopher who made the theory my colleague brought up post a comment!

My Thoughts in a Moment of Pain

2006-06-29T20:12:00.000+10:00

It’s the most incomprehensible pain I have ever felt, the hardest thing that I have ever dealt with, she gave me her answer and that was it, it was the first time I have ever truly felt whole in my ability to be truly selfless to someone.

I feel like crying but I can’t because if I explain to anyone they truly won’t understand.

At the moment in time I just wanted to hate her but I couldn’t, I just wanted her to be happy and at that moment my heart felt completely crushed but I knew she made the right decision, at least I hope she did.

I can’t fully comprehend this, I am utterly confused and right at this moment the only retreat I have is this blog.

I don’t know why but I felt so connected with her but I knew truly how distant she felt away from me.

I felt like just becoming mad and saying things cruel along the general lines of expecting too much from life but I knew it was never that simple and saying that would of just aggravated any chance she had of working through any faults she thought she might have.

I don’t feel like moving right now, I can barely breath, why do people form something great and then loose it because of something so trivial? I cannot answer this question.

Its totally and utterly crazy but it was like the minute I knew she was going to give me the answer I felt like crying, I knew it already.

I had the unhealthy emotions raging inside me, wanting to just die, wanting to be spiteful but on the other hand I had the compassion, the reasoning, the true love inside of me, and as crazy as it is writing this, which at this very moment in time with tears in my eyes, the only thing keeping me together is this feeling of love that feels so much stronger than anything material, obsessive….

I feel like I have come to a milestone in my life, I know I shouldn’t wear my heart on my sleeve, Its so hard not to because I just crave the giving of love so much, and I think I have realised that I can finally be who I want to be in a relationship as long as it’s the right person… if I ever find the right person.

Is it Karma, am I meant to find the right person? Maybe I caused someone so much heartbreak once in this lifetime or another lifetime that I have to suffer this fate.. but is it suffering or learning, I really need to reflect again.

I need to find a worthwhile purpose in life and with my pursuit of finding that one person its not going to happen, I need to just live my life, I’m thinking about taking a course to be a counsellor, I want to impact on others lives instead of living a materialistic egocentric goal, its not fulfilling to live a life of money or things or even looks as in the end it just comes down to death, we all die, and what if, I die at 30 but became a counsellor and prevented even just a few youth suicides, gave someone the hope they needed and the wisdom they needed to see life isn’t as bad as it seems, I myself have been there, in one sense I feel so hopeless and so meaningless but in another sense I know that I have learnt so much, come so far in such a short period of time and I have so much potential to care for others instead of just myself.

I’m sure if that right person, like this girl I met, someone who may of come as far as me when I meet her and accepts me for me might come along but then again is it truly important to meet this person.

How beautiful would it be to meet someone and want to change the world and make it more compassionite more liveable?
But do I need it? No
Do I crave it? Yes

It feels so impossible but what do I have? The knowledge to know I can go somewhere.

I’m sure I wont be me again for a while, I take much time to heal but that’s who I am.

These things I know for sure:
I hope she finds happiness and purpose
I hope that I find purpose and meaning
I need to cleanse these unhealthy painful emotions and become me once again.

I’m a wreck but I will cope, I left the door open to her, I told her what I thought was the best advice, I told her to be happy, and I don’t feel spiteful, I know I couldn’t talk to her normally at this moment in time as just a friend, maybe if I pass this her and I can one day be friends but for now she is out of my life and things are as they were before I met her, I’m glad I met her, she was an awesome person but it obviously wasn’t right in her mind.

I am utterly confused but lets hope the right views I held in this absolute expression of the thoughts in my head right now overpower any wrong views in this expression.

I hope though that most of my thoughts are right view, I am confident that they are but I’m sure in time they will make sense.

Reflection

2006-06-29T00:00:00.000+10:00

I haven’t posted on this blog for a long time as many of you may know, I’m not sure if any of my old readers from various places still check on the blog from time to doubt and I doubt it but here I will be posting my views, beliefs and perceptions from the world.

The first thing that has got me back into a post is love, its my trigger, it’s the thing that cuts deep into me no matter how strong it is, it always leaves me wandering how I got myself into the situation in the first place, internet dating? Wearing my heart on my sleeve? Getting attached too quickly? I honestly don’t know and even after long periods of meditation I can’t figure out why certain situations lead to so much suffering for me.

I know these things are certain, I do ultimately put myself in a position with the potential to get hurt, I do trust society too much to perceive certain people as being able to ignore the superficiality of the world, but the sad fact is, is that too many people in the world are conditioned with superficial views, they may not be aware of these things and it can take a very motivated and reflective person to be able to reflect on themselves and see the root cause of this problem and rout it out, but of course this is only my point of view.

For those of you who would like to work towards being more content with your life try listening to http://www.bswa.org/modules/mydownloads/visit.php?cid=4&lid=131 and see if it works for you, I myself have much trouble being content with live because like everyone I am not perfect, I want more meaning in life, I want so much more purpose but yet it can be so hard to find sometimes.

Without going into specifics I will go into detail about what has happened recently that has caused me to reflect on myself, you see I tend to always try to find some way of improving my life when things go wrong.

I met a girl, of course since my last post I have met many girls, and I just haven’t been able to relate to them in the same way I could this girl. This girl, I spoke with her on the phone many times for hours on end and I hadn’t met her, we could hold a conversation about things which you couldn’t usually develop a discussion out of in the everyday conversation. Things about life, love etc, it also seemed we had so much in common, this awesome girl couldn’t wait to meet me and it built up, we met, and that was it, I still felt the same way about her as I first did but she didn’t feel the same about me, of course this should have been expected, the one quam I have with myself is that I let myself get to emotionally and mentally attached, I thought hey this could work, as it turned out there were some views that even this great girl might not of known she held and that I still don’t know what they were that caused her to not be so *into* me anymore, I’m not going to make any kind of example of her but you can see from this wonderful but painful example, ultimately wearing your heart on your sleeve causes suffering.

On a personal note, I feel lost because this is the first time I have met someone who is so much alike me mentally and even some what spiritually that I was able to relate to on this level, it truly is hard sometimes when these things happen and pass us by but life is difficult and we have to find the good in what happens to us no matter hard it is, life is a learning experience.

Let’s reiterate on something important from the path of Buddhism, the four noble truths:

1. Life means suffering.
2. The origin of suffering is attachment
3. The cessation of suffering is attainable.
4. The path to the cessation of suffering.

You see this is great, it’s so blunt and in my eyes so true, my only problem is I don’t want to be totally detached from the world, I want a partner, I want to find a profession that helps people, this is my problem and I just can’t seem to find a way to work myself around it.

At this very moment in time I’m utterly confused, I don’t know what I want, what I want to do, I need to get out and enjoy life more.

As some of you may or may not know I’m and IT guy, I’ve always been into the challenge of learning things new and IT has seemed to be that profession, programming to be specific, but lets look at what’s wrong with that view, doing IT, doing something because its what I want doesn’t really achieve anything on a greater scale its just me isn’t it. Now as selfish as this my sound *I* would be a lot happier doing things that directly impacted and improved other peoples lives, not just mine.

Right now my stresses are many, I don’t altogether enjoy my job, I have loans which I just want to pay off, I’m not getting enough exercise because I never have enough energy thanks to my work, I’m giving up smoking which is hard but I’m getting there and of course the ordeal that has recently occurred that I have partly focused on here.

I don’t really know what more to say because I’m tired as all Hell but I would like to leave you with a few things to reflect on:

Are you unhappy where you are now?
Is your job causing you too much stress?
Is there any place you would like to take your life?
Are you having difficulties relating to people?
Is there something I don’t like about myself?

If you answered yes to any of the above questions ask yourself how to I reverse that or how to achieve what I want to achieve, its really easy if you think clear headed and make sure the motivation behind your goal is pure.

Also for those spiritual nuts out there reflect on how fulfilling the following may be:
1. I vow to rescue the boundless living beings from suffering;
2. I vow to put an end to the infinite afflictions of living beings;

For those love nuts out there curse by what may be Karma from the times we have broken others hearts as hard as this may be reflect on:

Do we need a partner in our life to be fulfilled?
Is the Pain worth it?
What are our alternatives?
(For me the answers are yes, yes, I will cover this if I ever get hurt so much the first two answers change)

Anyway that is me for this post on reflection, I hope it wasn’t to muddled as you may of notices I’m feeling quite reflective myself as well as confused and slightly lost, even empty.

The Futile Love

2005-11-22T00:58:00.000+11:00

Love is like a treasure without a map, its impossible to find.

No matter where you look the chances of finding *true* love are extremely limited especially in todays society. I have covered countless times what I beleive true love is, but how many other people out there hold what you as an individual think is true love, even to a simular degree.

Love is futiles, it simply places a reliance on another individual which in turn creates hurt and let down. If someone has truly found love then I congratulate you but for the majority out there looking the possibility of *true hurt* and *true anguish* is more so a possibility then *true love*.

Shall we give up? Its not in our nature but our nature as emotional and loving as it may be always seems to guide us down the path to pain instead of love.

Its a reality that stings.
Its a reality that hurts.
Its a reality that can only be taken away in dreams.
Fly on the wings of love, if only in your dreams.
Love is the missing link.

What People Say

2005-11-22T00:52:00.000+11:00

Its a reality that just doesn't seem to be easily accepted. The fact is, people are unreliable. Regardless of what your impression of anybody may be, nobody will ever be 100% reliable if even 1%.

People say they will do this or that but why? Do you think honestly anybody really does anything for other people these days? I think not.

In todays society where people have been brought up the way they have a selfish attitude is always around the corner.

Where am I really going with this topic? Essentially I just want to advise everyone that pinning hopes on another individual or even a group of individuals is futile. In all reality the only person you can rely on is yourself but, have you ever found yourself feeling regret etc? This is essentialy you letting yourself, so if you as an individual let yourself down sometimes how is it ever possible to have faith in any external entity.

Its the painful truth, that is all it is.

Be weary people for the real world is truly a painful place to live, live for yourself as living for others hurts to much.

Failure of Life

2005-02-23T21:34:00.000+11:00

Life is to live,

Love is to give,

Pain will hurt,
Hurt will pass,
The passing will hurt,
The hurting will kill,
The death is the way to end the suffering,
We want forgiveness,
We want happiness,
We fail at perfection,
We fail at giving,
We fail ourselves,
We have failed life...

Something a Little More Wild

2005-02-22T22:41:00.000+11:00

Yes thats it folks I have cracked, I have decided to talk about sex. Now as I have said in previous posts I think sex has been abused and made into some ridiculous game where people will just go out and have sex with whoever they please, mostly males who end up hurting women but of course women do it too.

I think sex is act best left for when you love someone, sex can be wild and fun but of course its at its peak when you actually care for who you are with. I think in the modern world it is important to be a little wild and experiment. Now in my opinion its the guy who should be pleasing the girl, guys have hands and they rarely do much anyway so they can do themselves instead, and it doesn't talk much to finish a guy off.

As I have said previously it is important to have good communication in a relationship and for a great sex life, being able to talk about these kinds of issues is important too. If you want your partner to do something to you talk to them about it. If you want to do something to your partner and you are not sure if they would like it talk to them and ask them, you never know.

Live on the wild side too, sexual fantasies don't have to just be fantasies, of course they should be nice fantasies but with good communication talk to your partner about your fantasies and see if they are willing to make an exchange, your fantasy for one of theirs, fantasies carried out together can be very intimate and can mean a lot between couples.

I think in conclusion, it is a good idea to experiment during sex and have a good time, moans and screams can be very fun. Only ever have sex with someone you love and make it a goal to learn that persons body.

May you all have wild, fun and intimate times with those you love :P

Illuzian

The Love I Feel

2005-01-31T23:24:00.000+11:00

She makes me happy just thinking of her
She makes me smile just to be talking to her
The love we feel is so amazing
The future we hold is so promising
My biggest fear is so sickening
I can feel the sadness thickening
Why do we hold these insecurities
Why do we make these fears
All I know is I love her
And I know in my hear she loves me
For it is so easy to love and so easy to fear
All I know is I can feel her near
Near my heart near my soul
It is like destiny
I want to be with her for eternity
May I be at ease
Knowing we will be together forever

Love.. Amazing

2005-01-28T23:39:00.000+11:00

Have you ever loved someone so much, but not been by their side? Have you ever worried about someone and not been able to hug them when they come home? Have you ever care so much it hurts you? I Am so happy right now, I found someone special, But she lives a little distantance away, I just want to be there with her.

I live my illusion, one moment at a time
I live for love every moment in time
I want happiness like every one of you do
I want nobody but my special somebody
That special somebody fills all my desires and dreams
Let me be with that somebody for that is all I want
All I live for is love, And this feels like a dream

Love In a Modern World

2005-01-28T20:17:00.000+11:00

Love is quite amazing, the feeling of love, the power of love and the way we react to love is all quite amazing. I think It is one of the most beautiful experiences one can have. This leads me to discuss in depth my thoughts on love itself.

I think love to me at least is caring for someone, making that person you care about happy and doing everything in your power to satisfy them and their needs, I think the feeling itself is also relevant but that really is indescribable, I can only advise those who would like to have an example will need to feel It first.

When one is in a relationship I think it should be essential to commit and also to be as selfless as possible, of course it isn’t possible to be perfect but on the same note one should strive to be perfect for that person, of course this should not involve changing who you are, but of course if you are completely selfless it could result in that.

In regards to selflessness, I think it is also essential to develop a good trust with your partner, some people have a hard time trusting but one must question this, if one does not trust this is very unhealthy. Think of it in a “Trust until proven otherwise”. Question your thinking, has the person ever broken your trust? If not there is really no need to worry.

I think like in every day life one should also watch their actions when they are in a relationship, when one becomes jealous, question the jealousy and see if you honestly have reason to be jealous, if you feel yourself getting upset or angry restrain yourself and ask yourself why this emotion has arisen.

I also think that good communication is very essential in all forms of love, you must talk to the person you are in a relationship with and be completely open to discuss anything, you must be diplomatic, do not react too much when you discuss topics you may not both agree on, be sure to allow your partner to have free will as well. This leads me to forgiveness and how important this can be.

When one is in a relationship it is important to consider that no one person is perfect, everyone makes mistakes, I am sure trust can be broken but it is also important to forgive your partner if you have a flourishing relationship but obviously when too much has been done to you then it is obviously important for you to consider leaving such a relationship.

I once heard a monk say if you want commitment marry a swan.. I think that can be very true, but what may seem like a good idea for all is to act like a swan, care take your partner, see them as equals and think of your actions and really question your emotions. I think commitment and openness is also truly essential.

Now I would like to discuss the things I think ruin relationships, I think it is also a good idea to be aware of the things that can damage a good relationship so as to prevent these things from occurring.

Now the main things I think ruin relationships are a lack of communication, selfishness, lack of control, lack of trust, too much stress and intensity, not balancing your life together, trying to change or control the other person

In regards to communication, I did address this earlier and as stated it is good to be open and communicate with your partner, if this does not occur it can result in a lack of trust or just a lack of interest also.

As I stated earlier selflessness is beneficial to a relationship, when one becomes selfish they forming expectations, when these are not satisfied one will get upset or disappointed, also a lack of trust can also occur when expectations are created, for example expecting your partner to spend time with you but they go off with a friend. I think it is essential to be as selfless as possible. Also the selflessness plays a part of being self controlled.

Self control is important, one must be able to restrain from overreact in a negative way, failure to do this usually results in your partner not being able to cope or being scare of you, this is not something that is of any benefit to oneself, also it is a hard error to mend.

The issue of trust I have addressed in this text many times before, a lack of trust can result in arguments, it can result in paranoia and also create many other negativities. Let go of your self question and be free to trust, for you will find it hard to establish firm ground in any relationship.

Stress is one thing that many people find hard to deal with, I think balancing a relationship is important in stress control. When you are with someone you need to be able to spend a decent amount of time with someone without smothering them, Spending little time together can result in a communication breakdown and spending too much time together can result in boredom, and of course conflict. When one enters a relationship it is important to pursue that which interests you outside of the relationship and maintain ones friendships, of course it is also important to do things together. Maintaining a balance in a relationship helps keep stress levels at a minimum.

I think accepting the person you are with is also important, nobody is perfect, if you have conflicting interests do not try to sway your partner or change your partner to like something they don’t want to like. If you are completely accepting of the person you love this will make your relationship that much easier.

In conclusion I honestly think that love is a wonderful thing but it seems people are loosing interest in each other and pursuing the wrong things, I think if we try to follow these simple ideas and be aware of ourselves we will live much happier and our relationships will be so much more rewarding.

May you all find true love and happiness

Selfishness and the World

2005-01-28T15:52:00.000+11:00

Recently I was thinking about a few things, selfishness and love, obviously in this post I will be discussing Selfishness.

I think the problem we have in the modern world is people really don’t consider other people anymore, I find this to be the cause of war, the cause of suffering and the cause of pain in most circumstances. I also think this same reason is one of the primary reasons for relationship breakdown with partners and also friends.

I think in the essence of things people do things for themselves, even doing things for others is generally for your own benefit. I think though that doing something for someone else is and feeling good about it is better then doing something solely for oneself, this does benefit yourself but obviously is doing much good at the same time.

I think it is wise to consider your actions on a whole when committing to them, if a friend wants to go out, go out with them and make them happy, don’t make people do what you want them to. In a relationship try to be completely selfless, aspire to make that special person happy.

Of course on the same token I would like to say that being completely selfless to the point where it makes you sick is not good, you need to take care of yourself, if you do not then you will not be able to perform your normal tasks to benefit others.. sometimes looking after yourself is of more benefit. Also think of the people that care for you, they may worry about you if you wear yourself down.

In conclusion I think that people need to consider the people that will be impacted through their actions, whether this be their friends, the next generation or their loved ones.

May you all be happy.

New Site

2004-12-24T13:20:00.000+11:00

Hey all, anyone who just randomly decided to check my work there is good news. I have started writing/blogging at the new "Masters of Trance" site. Site isn't perfect but its gettings there.

Content at the site consists of FAQs, humorous and serious, stories by the members and admins, computer gaming related content and of course Music related material. There are also forums with various categories.

Swing by and check it out, hope you all enjoy.

MOT - Masters Of Trance

How to React to Difficult People

2004-10-19T11:19:00.000+11:00

In life you will come accross many difficul and unsettleing people. They will try to get you worked up and try to bring you down and make you unhappy just as they are. I am about address how I think is the best way to deal with this people.

When a person challenges you in a way that is hostile, walk away and back out, if you are called a name, walk away. The best thing to do is give the attacker victory, this causes them no harm and makes them think about what they have done.

It is almost automatic to react to challenges. We must clear the mind and work on dealing with this people in a positive way. If we do react to them negatively we are ultimately causing them me pain as well as you more pain.

As hard as it sounds there are more benefits in reacting postively to someone then negatively. Give it a go my friends, let your egos drop for a day and see how it feels. This practice will also help you be more tolerant to your friends on, you will be able to deal with them more if they have a bad day. It will also help you be more tolerant to new people you meet.

May you all be peaceful.

Fault Finders

2004-10-16T22:54:00.000+11:00

I have just been reading and pondering on that of people who pick anothers faults and mistakes. It is not a kind or wise thing to do. Everybody makes mistakes in their life. The intention of one person may be that to help but people tend to pick the negatives in a person.

People are never perfect. I certainly am not and I invite you now to come forward with my faults, this is an invitation. I am giving this invitation for those who do come forward with my faults will not reap the bad karma of that action.

Don't look for faults in anyone, nobody should tell anybody or discuss anybodies faults, for would you like somebody to tell you all the mistakes you have ever made unintentionally? It is not your place to judge anybody for the only time that someone should look for faults is that when they Question themselves.

You are certainly not perfect and based on this you are not in the position to tell anybody they are not either. But on the other hand if someone tells you of your errors I urge you to treat it as a lesson, not a negative thing.

Please my good friends, accept people as they are. The only way someone will ever fix their faults is if they want help, if you ask for help without truly wanting to help yourself expect to hear some truths that may hurt.

May you all find peace within yourselves.

How to be Happy

2004-10-15T21:15:00.000+11:00

The following post is not to be taken lightly. I must advise all content written is that of a view I hold, it may not work for you and you may also disagree to some of my views. The following I have discovered through my life which I still have much to live. I hope it does help some of you to be happy.

Happiness is sometimes something hard to obtain, now it goes without saying you don't get something for nothing. Happiness isn't something that you just let in or that just comes. In essence you make you happy, you are the only person with this power.

You may say a certain sound is annoying you but this is simply because you are letting it, if you can let the sound in and just let it pass through you as hard as it may sound you will become much calmer. Now the best way I have discovered to calm the mind is meditation and chanting, many things can be relaxing, and by relaxing I mean relaxing not lazing. Work, Meditation, Writing. Many things can calm the mind down. I believe it is essential to have a calm mind to stay happy.

Somebody annoys you? Is it this persons fault they annoy you? NO!! now if this person annoys you whether they are doing it on purpose or not, it will upset your mental state.. but it is because you are not in a decent mental state that they annoy you. You can accept things and just live without making everything seem hostile.

Unfortunately controlling the mind to be happy is not an easy task and it really does need you to start looking at yourself a lot more. When you get annoyed or upset step back and ask yourself how this is happening, then ask yourself how you can fix it, now I don't mean go and smack the person who is making you annoyed in the nose so they shut up, I mean an internal fix, take some deep breaths and focus your mind on positive thoughts.

A good way to be happy is to just be positive, also if you do things for others it is very fulfilling and it has always been said what you give out you get back(Karma).

Do not resort to external things for your happiness. Why do certain people make you happy? Because you let them, not because they are special. Why is it that one of your friends is made happy by you and they make you happy, but that friends friend makes your friend happy but not you? Because you make let them annoy you, its that simple.

Now it has been tested(As from "The Art Of Happiness") that if you Said to yourself, I wish I was [X] everyday then you will be unhappy, but if you said I'm glad I'm not [x] then you will appreciate life more. Be more accepting of life and don't take things for granted as much. Many people are born with disabilities, what about third world countries and countries at war? You really have the life of luxury! Be grateful for the life you live.

Mind is over matter, so if you can say to yourself I will be happy, I will accept this person, then you will, the mind is the big tool for your happiness!

Never expect anything from anybody or anywhere, this will lead to your own demise. You can only rely on yourself for happiness and this is fact. Love yourself, meet yourself, look at yourself.. this is the only way.

If somebody gets angry at you or bullies you, let them win, it may make you upset but it is better than getting angry and gaining the bad Karma from this situation, if you let someone win you will gain back good Karma (this is very hard even I find this hard to do).

I think for now this is all I can say about Happiness, I may be back with more.

I hope this was insightful for some of you and may you all be happy!

Related posts by me:
What is real Happiness?

Life Is Ever Changing

2004-10-15T17:27:00.000+11:00

Nothing in life ever stays the same. You can rarely trust anybody, you can rarely expect anything back from anybody without getting hurt. This is a painful fact of life.

The title probably could be and very much is impermanence. Your mind is ever changing you will never be the same person ever, the things you see and have lived, the new decisions that you make every second change you the atoms and the blood in your body is always different every moment.

Now when it comes to relating to people be cautions, for they change themselves all the times, this may be to their own demise but if you have created some attachment to them then you will end up severely hurt. I have found this in my life, my heart was once torn in two after a person I cared for changed.

The only person you can only really trust is yourself! you know who you are, or at least you can discover yourself with a little effort and some green tea(really it helps :-P), you can see who you truly are.

Like a rivers molecules are ever chaning so are the people around you. One day you may be their best friends for whatever reason, the next you may do something with good intention and end up their worst enemy. Be cautions of how you associate with people.

Every action you perform, this affects your changes to yourself and those of the people around you, be cautious of the changes in the river of life you make with your actions.

Creating attachment and relationships with other beings is almost unavoidable in life, now there is, in essence no problem with this. But it is the extent to which you create the relationship and of course the intensity, this person may die suddenly, how do you feel? As harsh as it sounds this is a possibility. You must understand things in life, and understand your ever changing self to really be able to accept the hardest outcomes in life.

Be a mirror unto yourself, whenever you change clothes you can see wether you like them or not... see your changes in yourself, ask yourself are they good or bad and make the correct amendments! You will never be perfect, but the most perfect person is that whom can see and fix his own problems.

Do not try and fix others problems, for with your imperfections you are certainly not qualified, accept the everchanging state of life, and the imperfections in life, for it is the imperfections in life that make it interesting and challenging.

Don't drown in the river of life friends, flow with it for resistance, a desire to stay were you are will only make you sink. Float and follow the flow, this is the path to the ocean of happiness!

May you all Be Happy

Sex.. NO ITS NOT PORN

2004-10-15T02:32:00.000+11:00

Hello my friends, I am just writing to discuss sex. Now I feel that today in society that Sex has become very abused. Now of course sex should be fun and when you are in the right circumstances anything can happen with the right person, but I feel that the way it is exploited with no self respect or respect for others is a bug poblem.

Now to me Sex honestly is something you only do with a person you care for. You use it to express how you love the person or even to just have a jolly good time with them.. but I feel that it essentially should only be done with those you care for.

Now in society today we have many people sleeping around and just being irresponsible. I think it is sad to an extent but in essence it is also just something material that you may end up regreting too. There are so many STDs going around and too many nasty little things. This of course isnt the only reason not to stop and not the most important but as you have been told numerous times it is a good reason to be careful.

Now I used to hold the view that sex is only for baby making... I threw that away because I think it is such a beautiful act. The intensity between two people during passionate sex is marvelous. The relationship that develops during fun sex is very strong also. But I do beleive when this act is commited you are releasing a part of yourself to this person.

All I can say is be careful of that which you do for it could lead to yourself, really look at this act of love and try and apply it in the right way with the right person.

May you all be at peace.

The God Syndrome

2004-10-14T15:21:00.000+11:00

You may be wandering what I mean by the title. Simply what I am about to address is the human strive and crave for power and the desire to be number one as well as the ego.

Now honestly I do not know what creates a person who wants to have all the power, personally I think it is best to be simple and happy then powerful and well.. not so happy.

People desire power for acceptance, to be best, to be spiteful maybe even vengeful. Now of course in some situations you need somebody to be designated the controller over a certain element, such as the workplace with your boss and the like.

Have you ever had somebody stand over you, this person thinks they are more superior or better than you? Well never fear, don't get upset by this. Generally the people who do this are not happy.

I think it is part of someones search for happiness that develops the God Syndrome. People who fail happiness or resort to materialism at an early age may want general power as an attempt to fix their unhappiness. With power comes money also and with money comes more material possesions.. and of course more desire and pain.

Now generally people are not aware that materialism creates suffering, people keep indulging knowing only that short term good. Its like having some chocolate or a good tasting junk food, there are good results at that time and you generally only see the good until you are educated about the bad effects.

These people may never find happiness for they have created their own self suffering, their own pain and loop. The only thing we can do is be kind to them and attempt to teach them through example and interaction.

Competition can be good in life but there is always bred someone who wants to be number one, and of course being number one can start the God Syndrome off as well. Competition is aimed to be friendly these days but it truly never will be. The systems we use Gold, Silver Bronze, it always make you strive to be the best. If you beleive you are good and get 4th then you get hurt.

I honestly have nothing that I can say that you can use to apply this information to your life except maybe try yo be aware of yourself developing this and also be understanding of people with this suffering.

May you all be happy and live in peace.

What is real Happiness?

2004-10-14T12:52:00.000+11:00

Well here is a hard question. It is obvious that there are various different types of happiness induced by different things. Each happiness has its benefits or negatives.

Material Happiness. Material happiness is basically a kind of rush that is brought on from gaining something you wanted or desired, if you wanted a new computer and you finally got one you would be happy. Now even though your material desire was satisifed humans get bored of things easy, and this leads to the wanting and craving of even more material possesions. Now this happiness does not last, it lasts for a short time then you want more things creating more pain, or even if you are content with what you have there is the fact of impermance, it truly is impossible to create a relationship with anything because everything is ever changing.

Now there is another happiness on what I could say is based on love. This is the happiness of seeing your loved ones happy, this is also based sometimes on them making you happy, now personally I like this form of happiness but it can bring you down too. When you get attached to a certain person they may leave you or die, or sometimes be mean to you, now more often than not this will make you very unhappy. There is also the relationships you created with generally everyone around you and very often this can lead you to blame somebody for something that happens to you.. again more suffering is created.

Now the last happiness I would like to discuss is contentment with self. The only true way to keep your happiness up is to be content with yourself, you must be happy with yourself as you are. Now based on this I don't mean go out and get on a ego trip... this is simular to material happiness and will get you hurt. What I mean is be happy with yourself, realise that you can make others happy also for giving is also another way to be truly happy. If you can give yourself to others in the end you will be truly happy, you must accept your actions as your own, do not create blame, just be and live.

You can apply the last happiness type to the relationship category too, accepting responsibility for your own actions, also when somebody yells at you or gets snappy you can look at them knowing that they are not perfect as you are not, ask yourself why they are like this and maybe help or just leave it bee without getting offended. There is much more to this than can be said in this post.

I hope you all find happiness with yourself.

A Dream For the World

2004-10-14T00:57:00.000+11:00

What could we see happening for the world? Something that will never happen in our life time, maybe not at all. People living in peace and harmony.

The various different cultures in the world, the religions, the social communities, the different views, will it ever be in harmony? I doubt it. People tend to hold on to their own views too much, they would rather hold their ego as opposed to get on with someone and be in harmony.

People need to accept each other! Right now as you are reading this post, many of your views will differ from mine and the next person who reads it , now out of all the people who are some how connected to this post can they call get on? Well in theory yes. All that needs to be done is an understanding and acceptance of the basic human existence, undersand we all just want to be happy.

We all want to be accepted we all want to be right.. right? Why? Well think about it, deep down it is because we want to be accepted, by not accepting others views its ultimately a strive for you to be accepted by making others understand and accept your aparently right view. Now does religion, skin color, sexual preference, life preference or personal views matter or need to be the same for co-existence? NO!!

Although co-existence is hard at current due to the overwheleming development of the human ego it is a possibilty. Now if we all got along we wouldn't be striving for acceptance. Life would be fun and peaceful, people wouldn't get killed during war and things would progress easier. There would be no desire for one country to have more money than the next.

Many countries today are competing for power, many people are also competing for power. Power ultimately does nothing for the only true power you have and need is that over yourself.

The material wants and desires in the world serve no real purpose, people want more and crave more, this simply makes others who do not have what you have jealous creating less peace and if you don't get what you want you can also end up in pain further.

What can we do to fix the world? Well we need to work on ourselves as individuals. Now we cannot force another person to adhere to our view and of course the only thing we can do is make and example.

Is individuality a good thing? Well as bad as this may sound NO, if we were all simular than we wouldn't be jealous of others, we wouldn't create problems. I cannot say much more but people trying to stand out from the croud creates problems for those people who are "beneath" you. All I can say is think of what you are doing when you do something, try to think of everyone and the positive effects your actions will have on the community as a whole not just the benifits for yourself.

Now my dream is for a peaceful world, we can live in harmony, help me move towards this world brothers and sisters!

If we live in peace we can develop the world more, then the aliens might give us a chance!!! :-)

May you all find peace.

Cause and Effect

2004-10-13T21:40:00.000+11:00

A tree falls, it didn't happen for no reason, why did this tree fall? Was it termites, loose soil? It could of been many things but all we can know for sure is that there was a reason for it to fall. Everything happens for a reason, and everything happens based on an original cause.

When someone leaves you in a relationship there is a cause, usually it is something to do with something you have done or not done. If you get hit by a car it is ultimately your fault for being in a position to be hit by the car. A rock falls and hits you, whose fault was it? it was yours for being there. Why did it fall? Because it was dropped or because your Karma created a reason for it to fall.

Now how can you apply this to life? Basically what I can say is that nothing happens without cause. If you want money or love, it won't just come to you magically, an email will not arrive saying I want to give you 3,400,000 Pounds without initial cause. If you want something in your life make a cause, perform an action, talk to people, work, and plan things out.

The best way to put it is, Get off your bum and do something so something good will happen to you!!!

May you all perform the actions for the cause of your own happiness.

The Mind is Big.. REAL BIG!!!!

2004-10-13T13:30:00.000+11:00

The mind, it is a seperate entity to your body, it is your conciousness. The mind is where you think, its not the brain for that is physical but the mind.

Now when you think something based on what you see or no the mind makes it real, when you see something and the mind sees it, the mind makes it real. The mind makes the world go round... your world.

If you wanted to heal yourself just think it! The mind can make you stronger, weaker, healthier, sicker. The power of thought is amazing. If you think and beleive "I will find someone this week" it will happen, trust me.

Don't forget there is Karma related to the mind too, some things may be harder to get due to previous actions you have carried out. But if you do right and continue to think of others, what you wish will come to you one day.

Every Action has a reaction, and using the mind to beleive is the action, the reaction is simply a positive result. Now know your limits, don't get your hopes up based on someone elses commitements, just know something will happen, something you know can happen, this is all it takes.

The mind really is the biggest and most powerful think in the universe, It is your most powerful tool, use it well and you will be happy.

Catch 22... Love Again!

2004-10-13T13:09:00.000+11:00

Hello my friends. It has come to my light that the personality types of those simular to mine live a struggle. Of course those that have read some of my previous posts would know what personality type I am referring to... A Sucker For Love.

Not everyone is like me and not everyone who is like me does and reacts the same way as me but I have made an observation, and not a pretty one at that.

We look for love, when we find someone we tend to think nothing will never happen because it is what we may be used to, now this thought alone leads to a negative result. Also sometimes we get down, we tell these people and they must think "I don't want to be caught up with someone with these problems", also we may end up avoiding these people for a period of time because we don't want these people to think that, then they end up disliking us and thinking we were ignoring them.

Now what this means for us is that we create our own failure, through that mental reflection in our mind. As I have said the mind is the most powerful thing in the universe. We are perfectly capable of making things work my friends, we just have to work on this negative snowballing. So my friends lets try our hardest to think positive and be positive. Life is an act anyway.

May you All find love.

Hugs are Best

2004-10-12T23:03:00.000+11:00

Kisses, Hugs, Sex, Making Out. All those things come in a relationship. All those things mean something. Kissing can be wonderful, kissing can be passionate, romantic, it can be all sorts of things. Making Out can be for fun, it can be before sex it can be intense. Sex can be the ultimate union to show you care, it can be real or it could be for a good time. But hugs, hugs are something special. You can hug up to somebody in bed knowing you love each other, you can hug in public, you can hug someone you care about because you feel like it and you can mix hugs with kisses.

Hugging is beautiful and I think it beauty has been lost. People care too much about being sexual, and with this in mind its usually done just for fun or pleasure. I think hugs are amazing.

The moments you are with somebody, the moment you hold them being close to them. Knowing you love that person and that you will be together for ever. Knowing that you can work through things.

Hugs are truly beautiful. Let us reach out, tell the person you love how you feel and just open your arms. Tell that person you love them for they may never know and you may miss out. Get out there and find yourself someone to make sweet huggles with!!!

My Illusion

2004-10-12T21:24:00.000+11:00

My Illusion Is my Life
Love Is my Blindfold
When I am Blindfolded I see no Illusion
When I see No Illusion I make my own

Take my Illusion Away From me or Just give me Love

The Love We Should Give

2004-10-12T13:28:00.000+11:00

What is love? Love is the desire for someone close to be happy, it is the desire for someone you know to succeed.

What is a typical scenario for love?
You "fall" in love with another person then you get on well for a while before things start going down hill. One person leaves or cheats and the other gets hurt. Now the person who leaves obviously is not commiting but the person who got hurt, they should be happy for the other person.

Now in a modern day, relationships don't last, love happens in seconds and people see sex as nothing more but recreation.

Now obviously love should be unconditional, or maybe thats not so obvious. Now you ask how can you love somebody that spends no time with you or doesn't buy you things? Well simply put you should Love a person no matter what their problems are and no matter what they do.

If you set a homing pigeon free it will come back but if you lock it up in a cage forever at any opurtunity it has, it will try and run. Do not place boundaries on your partner. Do not expect things from them. Just let them be free.

Now you may say what about commitment? What about all the other things? Well of course I would agree commitment is important, if you commit to each other freely(notice the key word) then that will make the relationship that much calmer and wonderful. But what else is important? Communication! I think one of the first things that should be established in a relationship is communication, get up there talk to the person. If you communicate you can tell each other how you feel about certain things without getting in a rut.

Nobody loves me what can I do?.... How about love yourself! Im sure if you give yourself the chance you can always love yourself. Of course if you don't love yourself that makes you less attractive to a potential partner for they see you have no stability. Just love yourself, it feels good and is very important for stable mental health.

Now I don't want you to take anything I have said and blow it out of proportion, just take it and understand it on the simplest level. Of course this view I hold may be different to many others but it is the view I find logical.

May you all find happiness.

Departure for the Night

2004-10-12T01:08:00.000+11:00

Although I do not feel like sleeping, and with my insomniac ways I must get some sleep or at least try. You see my friends I work in a call centre, tomorrow I start work at 1600Hrs and I must be fit to handle the arrogant customers or else I will lose my Job.

It was very good having somewhat of an audience today and reading some of the interesting blogs I found.

Todays new blogs of interest:
- I THINK YOU ARE THE FUCKING ANTICHRIST
- Maruk - My Point of View
- RothDork

Most thought about topic today was:
Love

Most active post is:
Religious War.. What is it good for?

Ending feeling of the day:
Pleased to be meeting new people, craving love the same as usual

Ending Note:
May all that come into contact with my entries be somehow touched, not be me or my writing for I have no power, but by something or someone special. May all those out there find love. May you all find happiness and peace. It is that which you deserve.

See you all tomorrow my readers and friends

What you cannot proove I do not beleive!

2004-10-11T23:41:00.000+11:00

I just thought I might throw some oldies into a Dance Club to see what would happen and here it is:

Now say somebody told me that there is a Ghost in the next room. Do I beleive this person. They truly beleive they saw it, maybe they did, maybe they were deluded, maybe they are just taking the mickey but I choose to beleive or not to beleive them. Now I could go and see for myself and if I didnt see it obviously it is not real right?

To an extent this is all very true. What you cannot see you should not beleive. You must learn things for yourself and see proof to be genuinely beleiving something. Now I could say to you right now In my bank account I have $1000 and I will give that to the first person who asks(don't ask I spent my last pay already). Do you beleive me? Probably not.

Do you beleive in Aliens or Ghosts? The most suitable answer to that Question is, they are a possibility! There is NO solid proof(yet) that they exist(or at least proof we have access to) and there is nothing that can proove their non-existence.

You could have much aparent proof of somethings existence but what real proof is evidence? Unless you have truly seen something for yourself you cannot beleive it existed and be able to substantiate that claim.

I cannot make any claims to say that there is a God, but here is my claim, I am God, I know it. This isn't some power hungry ego trip, what it means is that what I see I choose to beleive and what I do is my choice, everything that happens to me is ultimately my choice. This is my truth! be your own God!

War fixes everything

2004-10-11T22:44:00.000+11:00

War really is a great invention. Its like murder only legal. One country thinks of a reason to invade another, goes in and kills masses of people including people from both sides. On the one hand you have the invaders thinking they have good cause to try and capture a country but on the other you have the other wanting tue freedom and trying to defend themselves. Both parties may be wrong or right and both with almost certainly beleive in what they are fighting for.

Im sure one country could find a legitimate reason to invade any other country if they really wanted to, as long as the motivation was there... greed, power or just general craziness.

Surely there must be peaceful resolutions to many situations. Now personally I beleive every living being is entitled to its own life. Now it is not our decision to take any life away from any being. When it comes to murder is it legal? No.. why? Well would you like your life taken away from you? You may say that some laws take away our own free will, this is true but this law, it prevents free will from being taken, if you loose your life do you have free will any longer?

Now I take two situations for example:
1. One person says something another doesn't agree with, the person who doesn't agree then argues the point and it gets very tense and hostile
2. Same situation as above but the person who doesn't agree accepts the other persons view and does not confront them

Now in the first situation both parties could get very hurt and upset but in the second both parties are accepting of each other(and their views) and nobody gets hurt.

Now when it comes to war, it should be fought on the cyber battlefield or not at all as opposed to messing with real life. Technically George W Bush and John Howard are murderers, they sent their men into battle getting some of those men killed and the men from other countries. I do not beleive in the death sentence but GW Bush does and of all people he deserves it more than anybody based on his own actions.

I will take another example. China invades Tibet, Tibet would like to be free but they try their hardest to avoid a confronting and hostile situation, still China invades, what Tibet does is very admirable, they walk away. Now you may say "but they lost their country", but the answer to that is "but they didnt loose their lives"

The lives of all beings are valuable. Do not support war, it is dangerous. I urge all to accept others as equal and allow others to be entitled to their own opinion, if you can see that someone may react in a hostile way to a certain view you hold do not express it.

May you all live in harmony with each other.

Does age matter?

2004-10-11T19:45:00.000+11:00

Today in the world we live in, we have many restrictions to do with movies and drinking, we have many forms of discrimination including that related to age.

I think it is unfair to group people by age at all(at least to a point). Somebody at 20 might be very immature, somebody ad 16 might be very mature. It is dependant on a persons mental maturity and development alone.

If somebody who is 14 is mentally advanced they should be able to watch "R" movies. Of course when it comes to alcohol and smokes as well as pornography, this is the persons choice to watch or consume but you shouldn't interact with these objects anyway as they can be harmful.

Now the main topic that I would like to discuss is that with age relating to relationships. I think in the modern world with mature people age difference should not matter. If one person is 20 and another 35 this should be no problem, wether it is the male who is 20 or the female it honestly doesn't matter. If two people can communicate and act together in union in a stable manner this is better than a 21 yr old male getting into a rut with a 20 yr old female or visa visa.

Age simply does not matter. I think the people who judge by age or exclude people by age are as shallow as those who judge by looks and those who discriminate whites over blacks and the like.

Of course there is a limit but that is obviously common sense. But in all reality, age does not matter. Love cannot be argued with and if somebody of a greater age gives someone of a lesser age a chance and love occurs then there is nothing that should stop it.

May all those alone fine love and a true partner.

My Notes On Buddhism #01

2004-10-11T18:37:00.000+11:00

I have discovered my little book of Wisdom, was actually started this year when I was living in WA. I will attempt to write and put as much meaning to all the notes I have here. Some of the Information was noted from the FPMT Centre in Bunbury and some are self notes.

Now Buddhism is a very beautiful religion or philosophy as some call it. It deals with the life you live now. Not your future not your past but the present moment, It doesn't make claims about God or the afterlife and it does't reject any of those claims either. Buddhism is very compatible with many other religions in the world too. Buddhism deals with happiness and how to obtain the highest form of happiness also. Buddha was not a God he was just a man, he never claimed to be anything more. If you want to see proof that Buddhas teachings work just try them yourself. But as I said Buddhism simply is just being, living the now in the simplest way. At least this is what Buddhism is to me.

Buddhism Notes

The Three Marks of Existence:
pain, impermanence, egolessness.

Everything is impermanent, A brick, a loved one, a car. A permanent relationship with anything is not possible

Internet Reference to the Three Marks of Existence: http://www.buddhanet.net/e-learning/intro_bud.htm

The Four Noble Truths:
1. Life is frustrating and painful
2. All suffering has a cause
3. The cause of suffering has an end
4. The path to end the cause of suffering - Meditation

Internet Reference to the Four Noble Truths:
http://www.buddhanet.net/4noble.htm

The Mind:
The mind is the biggest thing in the world. The mind is the cause of suffering, happiness and all other things. The mind is a seperate entity to the body.

The mind is powerful enough to heal the body, the mind is powerful enough to kill.

Avoid unwholesome states in the mind, also make sure you do something about any negativity in the mind.

The Five Precepts:
-Avoid taking the life of other beings
-Avoid taking things not given
-Avoid Sensual misconduct(includes but not limited to sexual misconduct)
-Refrain from false speech
-Abstain from mind altering substances

Internet Reference to the Five Precepts:
http://www.buddhanet.net/e-learning/budethics.htm

Best Resource:
Aside from the above the best place to locate information and a good starting point for beginners or people interested in Buddhism is the following link:
http://www.buddhanet.net/e-learning/guide.htm

I do have other notes but they are extensive notes form various sessions I have attended. It would take much time to change them into a valid format. Also much I have read I have not taken notes on. I am not an expert on the Dhamma so I do not see myself qualified to write about various things I have learnt in this post on Buddhism. You will probably see other texts about what I have learnt in life itself in the future.

Hope this made interesting reading for you all

Does being informed really help the world?

2004-10-11T17:14:00.000+11:00

Sitting here pondering on the news, of all things!

Now if you know that two planes have crashed into the two biggest towers in the world, would this affect you? Does it make you feel happy? No. But isn't that what the intention of the people who executed this mad plan intended?

If you were a terrorist would it not be more motivating to do something terrible knowing that it will be almost instantly broadcasted over the world?

Hijack a plane... nah the people on it aren't important... but wait it will go over the news!!! Our organisation will be feared after that!

....All of a sudden something bad happens.
Channel 7, WIN, GWN, CBS, FOX... "Something Terrible has Happened in [Country] "

All of a sudden you see this on TV your heart drops, All of a Sudden the mastermind behind this event sees this and they feel accomplished(in a sick way of course). Its the reality of things.

In conclusion I suppose as dumb as it may sound for me to say this but the news breeds terrorists! Its true, think about it.

Religious War.. What is it good for?

2004-10-11T13:24:00.000+11:00

ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!!!

I find myself looking at various religions and people practicing these religions everyday. We seem to create a lot of dribble about nothing.

Now I would like you to step back and look at the essence of any real religion, does it not generally teach you how to be happy or at least co-exist with others, does it not have guidelines about avoiding war and violence. Yes all religions follow the same principle.

Have you ever been in a religious argument you wish you never got yourself into? Many of us have but they can get very deep and even nasty. Practitioners of any religion would believe theirs to be the only right religion but if one religion is older or another has more people does this make it right? No.

What is the right religion? Whatever is best for you! I am not religious I’m Buddhist (go figure) but I am totally accepting of all other religions, to the extent that I know a little about most of the major religions and accept them. What am I not accepting of? Some of the people practicing these religions.

Now many people try to force their views on others, many people follow a religion without really knowing much about others. Many make claims about other religions without real background knowledge. Just don't do it, people are entitled to their own free will and if they really wanted to know they would ask or go and research the religion themselves.

If you are a follower of one religion and someone is not your religion… no matter what yours says don’t force anything upon them. If somebody falls from your religion based on their own free will, let them, they are not your responsibility. If someone doesn’t believe in God, let them for God is not proven(get back to me on that one if you have any proof).

Keep your beliefs to yourself unless asked to express them in a certain way… but if you don’t agree with me in this belief go stick it(sorry for the bluntness).

Religion is not worth getting into wars about, even just arguments, learn from others religions, follow your own, and be accepting of people, not what people follow. Love everyone you meet, and avoid pointless religious discussions. Be open, look into the essence of things!

May you all find truth in these words (no pun intended).

With wishes for all your happiness.

Is life worth living for love alone?

2004-10-11T13:17:00.000+11:00

Yes, Yes and Yes

Love, it is the basis of the human race and possibly all other forms of evolution. Love is what leads us to be happy, love in the simplest form.

What is love? Love is the desire for someone to be happy without ties, not "I love you, you love me back too". Love is not selfish, its the exact opposite. Love is what makes babies(or at least sometimes... lets not go into other ways this happens.. maybe another post). Of course love is neglected on occasion but you get that with everything.

If no human loved another or at least didn't love themselves(I will get to the reason why this breeds peace shortly) then we would of all been killed in war already.

Now if you love yourself but no other then you still wouldn't start a war, because you know that you are human, you know what it feels like and there is a chance that if you shot someone, someone else would come back and hit you with 6 bullets instead... not something you would like to happen to yourself.

Now I probably complicated things there but If I were to define humanity I would say that its just a label, but I beleive that the fact that we can surpass instinct and base our life and interactions on love alone makes us what we are(except psycopaths.. but thats another post for another day). We love and we "hate"(I don't actually beleive in hate.... I hate the word hate).

Now in my humble opinion based on what I have said, Life is worth living for love alone.

But what if the question was: Is live worth living for one person that you love alone?

I would still say yes, now if the person loves you back that would be the most wonderful reason to live, the fact you are in a great relationship.

What if love hurts you? Is live worth living then?

No, end it with a slit of the wrist now... IM JOKING(sort of). When you get hurt by love it is most possibly the most painful thing that will ever happen to you, it takes ages to recover and generally you will never be the same. But then you must say, if the person hurt me I deserve better(don't get cocky though). Go and find somebody who truly loves you and will be loyal(makes sure you are willing to do the same back though). Then once again you will be happy and have purpose!

So in conclusion the answer to my Question is YES.

Lots of Huggles go out to those that need(and want) them!

So I woke up and....

2004-10-11T11:52:00.000+11:00

The struggles of life, the pains in life, one of the biggest challenges we suffer in life is the attempt to get up in the morning.... Well I just made it for another day.

Now after defeating that challenge I am confronted with another, what to do today? Well obviously I am doing this right now so lets figure that out at a later stage!

What is it that makes a new day beautiful? I beleive that it is the possibility that somethng we desire might come along and slap us one, I for instance might get a call from some random girl who wants to mary me(well come on its a possibility I can dream can't I?).

But okay here is the point I want to make, you get up, your heart flutters ooo "a new day" some of us think, what makes it different to the last, and what even makes it a day... the flow between "time" everything that happens to us is the same, every atom proton and neutron that makes up one object is in essence the same as the next and beyond that which makes up the atom what is there? There is nothing! Therefore we live every day for nothing, we get excited over nothing, we expect a call from nothing. The only thing that makes something different is the way we label objects!

Right now I am sitting on nothing and typing on nothing, so on this new day in wich I am excited over nothing lets see what will happen to me(who in essence is also nothing) and lets see what I can dribbles up on my blog by the "end" of the day!

On I lighter note may all those reading this blog be blessed, there is someone out there who cares. May you find happiness and peace within yourself!

Random Thought and Comment of the Day

2004-10-11T01:45:00.000+11:00

Well its 1:45 in the Morning here, and I have decided that I MUST write a random comment, thought and question!

Thought:
I must be sexy or I wouldn't love myself!

Comment:
Maltesers seem like a good cure for Coca-Cola induced stomach acid

Question:
Is life worth living for love alone?

Why am I living an Illusion?

2004-10-11T01:10:00.000+11:00

Okay, you may be wandering why my Blogs name is what it is... well the answer is because I am(and the rest of you.. ) are living and Illusion.

Why? Think about it, you react with people the way you want to, you take things the way you want to, you understand things the way you want to. Every moment you live is in the past as soon as you live it and then what proof is there that it happened? Your unreliable memory showing only what you saw of that moment... maybe even removing details that you don't want to remember maybe only seeing part of what happened!

If you saw an old lady get up and leave her bag there then a young lad on a bike swoops past and takes the bag you think THIEF!!! but what you don't know is that that lad on the bike was the old lady's grandson and that he was piking up the heavy bag for her to take to her car(he is riding the bike because he lives down the road and she lives in the next town) now you only saw and knew part of the situation(as far fetched as it happened), now what you see on the news does it really happen?

Basically you only know what is in your past as minute as it is. But you never see the truth, you never see every place at one time!

Did you ever hate a certain food when you were young and wanted your desert... you pretend in your mind its another food(it works to an extent) so you can handle it.. mental clouding!

You delude yourself to beleive that a new car will make you happy and you get it and what happens... you want more!!

Every moment you live is in your past and every moment to come won't last long enough to be reality.

I make you who you are, I make what I see what I want it to be, I feel how I want to feel, this is because I am my own God, My mind makes my life what I want it to be, this is my Illusion!

LOVE LOVE, What I think love is and how beautiful it is(plus some great tips!!)

2004-10-11T01:05:00.000+11:00

Love, the most beautiful and important thing in the world! Without love we would most likely all be dead... Well maybe we would be unevolved monkeys or something but thats beside the point. Love is very real, very powerful and very beautiful.

If there was no love there would be no peace. Love breeds tolerance. You love your friends, you "hate" your enemies. People care for their children and their partners creating beautiful unions.

I have heard its said that if you want a loyal partner mary a Swan! This is almost true for in the world today nobody works at relationships anymore. "I don't love her anymore" is a common call for someone ending a relationship... well that means your a weak mofo who should go back to the cows(sorry about the harshness). Love is a choice, this is fact, sure people may do things that result in you not loving a person anymore such as cheating or abuse. But in reality, in a relationship that is going fine, let your walls down and love a person, give them a chance and something might happen. Work at a relationship, nothing happesn without cause and a broken relationships cause is nothing... no effort, nobody trying!

If nothing is happening in a relationship and YOU are bored or you think your partner is then act and make it fun again! ITS YOUR RESPONSIBILTY

Love to me is making someone I care for happy, showing them I care, giving them my all! Taking as little from them as possible, and letting them be free. Love to me is giving someone hugs and sweet kisses, looking into their eyes knowing love exists between you. It is something I miss. But I can tell you the girl that left me I no longer love, so love does not exist there any more.... what love is not is what I feel for her, But only what I once did, I have loved two people in my lifetime(in a Swan relationship way) The first broke me and the second... I broke, she was great but we lived apart and I gave up, I was weak, she deserved better anyway, I will never leave anybody again!!

I see many people around me, I see love around me, it is a wonderful thing to watch. Don't be jealous when you are not in a relationship and see others in one for you should be happy knowing they are.

Don't ever take someone for granted, don't ever judge people by looks. The person they are is more important. Don't judge by age, for it is mental maturity that matters.

If you give your love you will gain it in return, if you give your love and do the right things by others you will surely be happy.

Love yourself for if you cannot, nobody will want to love you either.

If you crave love start looking but don't get too desperate for this results in more pain and little success.. trust me

Love may be accross the room from you, love may be next to you, be brave, just do it, talk to a person as hard as it may feel. In a room of 50 people of the opposite sex(or the same depending which way you swing) at least 10 of those could be potential partners for you, know this for it is true.

Don't get yourself in a mess by looking after someone who needs help as harsh as it may sound, if love is there its not love its infatuation, you will end up hurting(trust me). But if you really step back and know you love the person when you meet them then its worth it despite what I say. BUT if you are already in a relationship and the person you are with needs help give it your all.

Put effort into love, love love. Appreciate love and never ever give up. You will be happy with someone marvelous oneday trust me :-D

What am I in the mood for? Am I happy?

2004-10-10T22:57:00.000+11:00

Well.. I don't know and.. Define Happy!

I am in the mood for a hug, I am in the mood for love, I am in the mood for a kiss, I am in the mood for sleep(which I have trouble getting). I am in the mood to meet new people.

Now after you hear all those things you may think im Gay(and no I think if you are gay that is perfectly fine!!) But no, im certainly not. I just look at things differently and think women should be treated with respect and... (sorry guys) that they are more intelligent and superior to men. Obviously there is equality but women are not generally controlled by testosterone and urges to get people of the opposite sex in bed, I mean who really gets hurt in relationships? (other than me) Women!! the men usually go off and sleep around and there you go, its screwed.

BUT.... on another note, when a relationship breaks down who has it easy? The person who ended it for some selfish reason!, the wanted better sex or someone hotter or just to be free, the other person(unless they were left for a good reason like abuse) is sitting there with their heart ripped out wandering what hit them. The other person moves on to someone else and it takes forever for that person who got hurt to recover and move on. Its sad and painful but it happens. Let me be there for those who get hurt or at least know that I have felt your pain or that there is someone out there who cares!.

Well there you go I felt like writing about the above!!! :-P

Now am I happy? Well NO, not right now im sort of in between being happy and mellowed out(no I don't take ANY drugs.. well other than prescribed ones). But im just not happy, after getting annoyed at us fellas for being sleazes and getting cut over decent people getting hurt in relationships its going to take a joke and a half to make me smile this evening. But then again I make things how I want them in my life so here I am at the end of this post and im almost happy again!

The Joys of Suffering

2004-10-10T22:36:00.000+11:00

To be alive is to suffer. But what is that which we suffer? Life is the suffering of ourselves. We desire, we crave, we hate, we ignore. We create our lives ourselves to the extent that we see what we want to see or choose. When we walk to the nearest fast food store, there is something that we suffer from, we suffer the feeling of walking, we may suffer from the heat, and we are suffering from the craving of the food. Of course we could just be simple and accept things around us, but if we were simple we would certainly not be going to eat fast food and we certainly would not be spending money on it or even have money.

Suffering is that which we create ourselves, and it is mostly us westerners that suffer. But do those we think suffer, truly suffer that much? Does a poor man with one donkey and two children suffer more than that of a western man with two children and a CEO Position at Microsoft? Well I can’t really make that judgment but in all reality the “donkey man” is probably better off, this man probably appreciates the more important things in life more, and in that life itself. The Western man probably craves more, wants more, and creates his own suffering. But as I said, I can’t make that judgment.

What is your one aspiration in life? Is it to find love? Make money? Be happy? No matter what it is, it creates suffering, none of these things are real goals for the desire to have them creates more complications than the actual acquisition of the goal itself. I myself crave love. And I can tell you that is a painful suffering. What can I do to fix my suffering, well in reality nothing but the best I can do is ignore it and stop wanting.

We cling, we desire, we satisfy but when we die where does it go? Well it goes to someone else who then suffers it more. But what happens to us when we die? The cessation of suffering so it seems! But let’s live this life of suffering just in case for death might be hell. Live your life of suffering and enjoy it for life is what you make it and suffering will always get better. If you suffer the craving of love maybe you will eventually suffer too much love (in a good way) or too much money. Just wait and see. And even if you suffer too much smile!

The Pain I Suffer

2004-10-10T21:46:00.000+11:00

I really cannot believe what I do to myself, what have I done now? Something I do to myself all the time. I meet someone I am surely attracted to, at a higher level, a personal level, not a physical level. I try I do my best, but my best is never good enough. All I want is love, but the people I care about see me as nothing.

Nothing is what I will always be. You get your hopes up about something and then you get hurt, you are lead to believe it will happen then all of a sudden it doesn’t, and it is the most painful thing ever. It is unbearable. Do you know what that feeling is like?

Death, what is it? Death is an end to suffering, life is suffering, that is fact, but the what if there is a rebirth and you kill yourself, one of the only ways to end suffering and you are born to suffer even more. Nothing will ever be fair.

My karma, my feelings, Who I am it isn’t fair. I am hopeless, if these are the feelings my father felt I now know why he was an alcoholic, it must have been so unbearable and that alcohol must so easily quell the pain we feel. Pain, what is pain… pain is everything. Death may be pain to the people not dying but they should be happy for that ease out of suffering… or are the people still alive jealous of those who die I know I am.

Plunge a knife into me, take my life away from me, this would be surely my greatest relief. Do this to me and I will be forever in your debt, for the best advice I can give those who do that for me is to turn the knife in the other direction after plunging it and do it straight back to themselves.

Life is a never ending cycle of pain. Love may be promising but Love truly is the passage to extreme pain. True love is rare, nobody works on relationships, if you are prepared to work on a relationship surely the other person will not be, and you will suffer. Real love is so rare, but be happy for those that have it don’t be jealous even though you may never have it.

If you wait you get hurt, if you put effort in, it is for nothing. Just take things as they come some may say, but if you are not prepared for the worst you suffer the death of the heart, you suffer the death of the mind at an emotional level.

Save your love for no-one give your love to everyone. If you are out to get love it will not come, for love is only something that can be given not taken. If you are given love, don’t start to want more, give all you can back for it is truly the only thong to do.

You could suffer life, you could end your life or you could just be simple and never look for anything, the latter being the easiest to live a happy life with but although it is based on simplicity it is the hardest to obtain.

Those sufferers of money desire, they are lucky for that is the easiest to gain, it just needs work… don’t get to caught up with it though.. it is also the easiest to heal and fix, those who suffer from physical pain appreciate it, it really can be a nice feeling and when its gone appreciate your life more. Those who suffer love and suffer emotional pain, are better to end it now or close them selves off from the world, us, the sufferers of love, we go out get hurt. Lets go back to out shell or run to our blades. I promise you all, life is too painful to live, if we were all there for each other the world would be perfect for us but we are rarely in that position.

Take my illusion away from me, that is all I desire. And if you don’t want to do that find someone to love me how I need to be loved. Being happy with yourself is too hard, it is possible but for some the possible can be all too impossible.